How are you feeling today?

[cornish]

dunno, contacted them on facebook, no reply yet, just makes me more anxious so starting to feel like getting rid of facebook again, just feels like people dont want to talk to me,  hopefully just paranoia

[Munchroom]

Thankyou - and Cornish its nice to see some humour!

You are right lol - the loss of my friendship with Peter has completley devastated and confused me beyond belief! I don't understand my own feelings towards what happened and its been about 6 months since I've seen him. I go through so much anger and regret, guilt, devastation.... all on sometimes what seems like a daily basis that I just don't know how to cope with it. I can't really post too much though because it is a public forum and he does know I post on here.... I don't want to say something I'll regret, not in a necasarily horrible way, but I can't really explore my feelings fully on here, sorry.

Had an anxiety attack today whilst we were shopping for celing lights and yard brushes (oh... what an exciting life...  ) had to come home and go to bed and fell asleep crying. I could tell Chris was trying his hardest to perk me up, but that just made it somehow worse. I feel I could just cry all the time and I'm so irritable... I don't like myself very much at the moment, to say the very least.

[danbob]

im in no mans land at the moment..... iv not had any medication since september but ive found myself medicating myself in other ways

[Got]

Something I have done frequently. Is going back onmedication a good idea do you think?

[Bewildered]

Scared and shell shocked is how I feel. Alone and angry...my partner has been very cold and cruel today with his words and has ripped away all my hope.

[danbob]

Something I have done frequently. Is going back onmedication a good idea do you think?

the clever person in me wants to agree with you...... however ha ha

[Alstare1974]

Scared and shell shocked is how I feel. Alone and angry...my partner has been very cold and cruel today with his words and has ripped away all my hope.

Sorry to hear this. Do you want to talk about what happened?

[Bewildered]

Well he's been moved out for a week and I asked him by email if he missed me or the house etc at all. He said no not really...then I think maybe I pushed too far and tried to get him to tell me why he left and why he does not love me anymore and he came back with this

I knew it was over for a while now. I've done my grieving for the end of it, which is why I might seem to be accepting it better than you. I'm trying to be distant because you need to accept the fact that it is over. I think I shouldn't come around on Monday nights for a while.

It' so cold...like he's fine now and over it and I should just get with it and get over it...alone. It's just so hurtful and still he won't tell me reasons as he signed off skype after this...running away...but it is like I have no hope now because as time goes by I wonder is this just teh depression?

[Alstare1974]

That really sucks. Hugs

[Got]

Im sorry to hear this Smirfy. You have your own grieving process to go through now. You will gte through this, but unfortunatly at the time it feels like the end of the world.

Please take care of your self and your health. XX

[Alstare1974]

How are you today Stevie? What time did you get to sleep and get up?

[Got]

Not sure when I slept, I woke at three this afternoon. It is no good at all. What about you?

I had a bad day really, but feeling better now.

[Alstare1974]

Got to sleep about 3am up for half an hour at lunch and finally got up at 6ish.

Am lying in bed and I coukd cry with frustration at my sleep pattern.

[Got]

Yes, its tough to break. But, if you manage to do it, you could feel much better depression wise, and get more sunlight

[Alstare1974]

It's just having the courage to stay up for that length of time. Plus I don't have anything to do with my days anyway :-(