Thanx 4 your kind words glen,but that's what i am scared of,things gettin worse. which i am not stupid,i know when i leave my partner it is goin 2 be a lot harder than what i am experiencing now! but how do i cope with that?
i met someone on a course yesterday and her story was quite an inspiration 2 me. Her relationship 10years. They split up,she moved,new job,new area and she said even though at the time it was awful she has come out the other side and life is great 4 her now! She said even though i will feel weak,helpless and pathetic,that there is light and she told me 2 go 4 it if it was what i really wanted! It is what i really want.
I have hit the dip that i have been preparing 4 and it seems 2 be work it is affecting the most! I am sitting here,marking books,nearly crying,just wanting 2 run away and hide. Home is my saviour at the moment,or at least my bedroom where nothin and no one can get 2 me! Im so tired of this illness and the lack of support i get from professionals because i am well enough 2 work. This is when it happened 2 years ago and i was off work 4 5months. Im scared!