Hi there, it's nice to come across this site. I suppose I've suffered from depression along with anxiety for as far back as I can remember. I'm 30 years old now, have been on various ssri's, i'm now on paroxetine, 20mg, used to be 30mg. I've been considering going back up but I really don't like the side effects, i.e feeling like a zombie, weight gain and sexual problems. I used to have psychotherapy when I was working but I'm unemployed right now and cannot afford to go private. I'm on a waiting list on the NHS but my doctor told me it can take up to 18 months.
I used to have an alcohol problem, I'm currently 2 months sober with the help of SMART recovery online, which I've found has helped me more than AA. Despite now being sober I can feel a lot of unwanted emotions returning, i.e depression, panic and anger. I'm hoping this site can help while I'm waiting for therapy.
I'm also a very spiritual person, but not religious. I've taken to reading many spiritual books as well as meditating, usually twice a day, though sometimes when feeling everely depressed, meditation isn't a good idea.
I look forward to becoming accostomed to the site and look forward to speaking to you all.
Greg
