hi, my first time on here. don't know if anyone can relate to this. husband is taking citalopram and has for 5 years although not being right for 15 years. He wants to get better but as soon as anything good/important happens in our lives he can't seen to cope and it builds up until he explodes at me and I think I am starting to believe it may be me. god knows I have been verbally abused and blamed too many times I care to mention. We are having extention built at moment and he has blown up friday and yelled i put him down all the time in front of everyone and I say no to anything he suggests. We have had a bit of a banter with the builders joking about his diy skills where he joined in. He thinks we will run out of money and all the extras we have to pay has him stressed to bits. Now he says he wants to sort the rest out without me interfering and is making me feel scared to voice my opinions and I feel reluctant to discuss things with him. I have been here thousands of times before and know why he does it but i feel so low and lost because of how he speaks to me. i feel I am sick of looking out for him and our kids but I love him or I wouldn't still be here.Where do I go from here? I am sick of him pulling me down all the time and me having to pick myself up but he doesn't realise how much damage he is doing to our marriage. We haven't been intimate for 7 months now as I can't bring myself to get close because he makes me feel useless when he blows up at me, about every 8 weeks or so. It is getting longer between spats though but i just get myself on an even keel and the set back happens again. Is anyone ther going through what I am and can give advice, although I think I have tackled it from every angle?
Thank you
