Just need to get this out.
Back in 1999 a friend of mine from school, got into trouble with drugs and the law.
I saw him on a wednesday afternoon and he offered me out for a drink on the friday night for a catch up as we hadn't seen each other for about a year, but I said no.
On the saturday night, he hung himself.
I found out yesterday, that TWO MORE school friends have hung themselves back in 2004.
Similar drug related incidents mixed with depression.
Suicide and depression does not just effect the victim, it hits those around them too.
To this day, 12 years after my first friend died, I still wish I'd bought him that drink. Maybe things would have been different.
Last night I couldn't sleep and at one point ended up heaving up my guts into the toilet.
All 3 of my friends would have turned 30 this year, it's a f***ing shame they went down that road.
In truth, I'm broken hearted.
Please please please read this if you are suffering with depression and think about what your doing before doing it.
Suicide is not the answer, to take something beautiful and destroy it, just by thinking you 'can't go on anymore'.
I love all of my friends. Now I'm mourning 3 of them.
Please.