Hi, I'm new on here. I have been really struggling lately and seems the mental health service is really not great. I have been depressed for quite a few years now. Beginning of this year I attempted suicide and was put into a mental health hospital. I was reluctant to go in but when I was, I hoped that being they would be helpful and by the time I was discharged to feel a little bit better at least. But no one listened to me. Staff said to me directly that I was attention seeking. My 18th birthday came and beside still being classed as a high risk patient, I was discharged and transferred to adult service in the community. I have been out for 2 weeks now and things just seem to be worsening again. I am in sixth form but struggling to get out of bed and not attending classes or even seeing friends. I am just really struggling with everything. I haven't left the house in a week which I know isn't going to help matters but I am so physically and mentally exhausted I just don't know what to do with myself. I feel so lonely. The crisis team visit regularly but I don't feel they listen to me in the slightest. I'm not sure how long I can continue to carry on like this again. I have plans but if they don't succeed I can not face going back into hospital again where I will be even more isolated besides being on 24 hour observations. I was on cytalopram but that made things worse, now on new anti depressant sertraline which isn't going to take any affect for 2-3 weeks like most anti-depressants. But I am not sure I can cope until then just to feel a bit better. Sorry for rambling on. Feeling so alone with no one to talk to, would really appreciate a reply. Thanks.
