Feeling bad..

[Will_Mac]

hey sorry for posting like this, I just feel quite bad this morning, still in bed and finding it hard to find reasons to get up.

had a cry which for me feels a bit pathetic, been wishing for my father who died in 2006. Its a bright day aswel but dont feel interested. dont wanna be stuck in all day though.
i felt good yesterday and was dreading this morning, sorry but i dont have any friends i can tell and dont want to burden my mother as she is ill herself (another point of worry)
Also just found out that for some reason i cant draw money out of my bank which needs to get sorted.
been smoking tons aswell which is not good.

Will

[lightenup]

Hi Will sorry you are feeling really bad at the moment,  I really understand how you are feeling as I have been through this.  Its difficult to fight when you are feeling so ill, keep telling yourself your going to fight this think of all the nice things or things that make you feel good. 

When you are so down you tend to dwell on things that upset you, I had nightmares regarding my sister's death.  Your brain tends to draw on the irrational side of things and you go further down, think about nice things about your dad, and ways you could maybe help your mum (maybe just sitting down and chatting about good times you all had together).  Crying is good and far from it you are not pathetic for doing it.

Try to be really kind to yourself.  Listen to some music you like, take a walk.  Also if you can deal with the issue with the bank as soon as, because you will only dwell on it and it will pull your mood further down.  Hope this helps (big hug) 

[bel]

Sorry to hear you're feeling bad. Recovery can be very up and down sometimes, I've found. As lightenup says, be kind to yourself, especially don't beat yourself up for feeling bad - that's depression.
Another (hug)

[Will_Mac]

It is very much up and down, i managed to get up and went for a walk with my sister and her wee one. It made me feel abit more human again.
The bad news is that my bank account has been robbed of a fair bit of money, the bank manager was really helpful on the phone though and i have to get a new card and they will look into re claiming the money.

Strangely i dont feel that bad, more disappointed.

i didnt mean to say that crying was pathetic, but as a guy it feels abnormal. I guess not being able to display my emotions is something i have to deal with.

Thank you and Hugs back.

Will

[bel]

Well, thats cr@p about your bank account  . Sounds like you're dealing with it well though.
All the best x

[Will_Mac]

Well, i'm dealing with it. I've been told that the money can be re claimed so its not to bad.

Meet and school friend and have been hanging out with, its good but i feel anxious about it. i think it may be all the old memories and the state i'm in.