Hi again guys, weird to think its been over a year but im back again. i've been working in a new lab since january, the pay is ok but i'm working 12 hour shifts 2 days and 2 nights. my sleeping pattern has never been right since working there so i'm starting to try and look or another job.
Back in august some trouble started with my brother, i was trying to help him get a job but it fell through. He called me saying he's going to cancel his benefits, i call my mum to tell her as he lives in her house and pays nothing towards bills. he eavesdrops on the conversation and completely looses it, in 24 hours he called me more than 60 times, i never picked up though because he would shout down the phone at me and say vile things like he does to my mum, then he started leaving voicemails.
threatening to go to the police about us for harassment and claiming that we wanted to make him homeless (after he walked out by himself because my mum wanted to speak to him) and that we wanted to harm him. simply because i refused to answer the phone... he also refuses to believe the threats of stabbing my parents that he made last year.
over the next 2 months i tried sending him texts trying to help, telling him to go seek professional help and that he was delusional and paranoid, that we loved him but that i could no longer have anything to do with him as it's harmful to my health. so fast forward to last night, after several blocked calls from him i got a text message reading "you've driven me to suicide but i'll never let you live in peace" and another today reading "you've killed you're own brother, why?" I'm just so sick of his vile and twisted bull&$%+, he has dragged the entire family into his problems. i honestly hope he gets the help he needs, its completely broken me these last few months but it at least feels like he doesn't have that dark hold over me that i've had until i stood up to him.
I would honestly be content if he were able to get better and have his own life, even if it meant him hating his own little sister.
right now i'm a mixture of being beyond angry at him and pitying him. All i know is i want nothing more to do with him, i've spent my entire life trying to help him and its achieved nothing but leaving me a wreck.
sorry for the long post, i just wanted to talk about it.
