Author Topic: i am very depressed please help  (Read 4653 times)

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
i am very depressed please help
« on: February 25, 2016, 10:08:45 PM »
Hi these 4 months have been rough for me. i had to stay away from my friend ,not talking to him only waving. the teacher told me and i took this hard ,i cired about 30 mins and could't stop crying. then i had throughts i just wanted to die and not live anymore. i was on zoloft at the time and it did not help with this and the doctor up it and it worked for a little bit and the dcotor then change it to effctor. which is the worst medication i told in my life! but my friend does still wave to me when i wave to him and he sometiems waves first. but i can no longer deal with the pain anymore. i just want to cry. Like today at work my boss did not need me today i felt dissapointed. i wanted to cry. And today i felt like my friend was trying try avoid me ,but he did wave without reallying looking at me. i just feeling like crying. i am thinking about asking my doctor again but
I cannot deal with the pain anymore

it hurts so bad that i cannot deal with the pain when i see  him ,i just hate my life  :(



Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #1 on: February 26, 2016, 11:15:32 AM »
Just before I forget, could you maybe stop by the new members area to introduce yourself to everyone please?  Thank you!

OK, onto your message now    :happy0158:

What are you studying and how old are you (under 18 or over 18 sorta thing)?  I'm just wondering why your teacher wanted to stop your friendship is all?  I know that you feel like the world is a cold, dark place right now but things really can get better... keep going, Detour and things will get better eventually!
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #2 on: February 26, 2016, 11:19:10 AM »
Hi i bugged my friend a lot ,always talking to him and the teacher said i can only talk to him once a week but behind my teachers back i talked to my friend and my teacher found out and it making me stay way from him for a month but its been 4 months!

Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #3 on: February 26, 2016, 01:53:47 PM »
What would your teacher do if you went back to talking to your friend openly?  It's not fair that they are stopping you from talking to him even though it's been over the month now!   :chin:
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #4 on: February 26, 2016, 07:54:12 PM »
Hi i would get in trouble

Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #5 on: February 27, 2016, 11:51:20 AM »
But the punishment was only for a month which you have complied with so you should be able to talk to your friend again!  How would you feel about asking your teacher if you could talk to your friend again now that you've tripled the punishment length?  Does your friend live close to you?  Could you maybe see him after school or something?   :hug:
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #6 on: February 27, 2016, 12:13:41 PM »
Hi i have and i did write my friend a letter saying sorry and my teacher said my friend was very pleased with the letter.but he said he is still working on it ,he has just been busy. but the other day i saw him and it was raining out but he did wave to him and he was walking fast and i said bye and he did wave back but without looking at me ,had his back towards me. i just don't feel like eating anymore or doing anything   

Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #7 on: February 27, 2016, 04:42:30 PM »
I'm glad your friend liked the letter... maybe he just needs time alone for a bit or something?  I reckon he still cares about your friendship because he keeps waving to you, but maybe he's got things going on that he needs to concentrate on atm?   :hug:

Please keep eating, Detour... I know it's difficult right now, but I'm sure your friend would prefer you to be healthy and happy until he can come back to your friendship!   :hug:
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #8 on: February 27, 2016, 05:35:56 PM »
Hi why do you think he was walking fast for ?
the letter was in December

Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #9 on: February 27, 2016, 06:10:34 PM »
It was probably something totally innocent like he was late for something or he'd just noticed what time it was or he had to be home at a certain time or whatever  :hug:

Maybe send him a "thinking of you" or "missing you" card or something?  Something that let's him know that you still care about him sorta thing?  If he's got an email address and you know it, maybe send him an ecard or something?  Don't write an essay, just a "thinking of you and missing our friendship.  Hope you're OK" sorta thing?
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #10 on: February 27, 2016, 06:29:10 PM »
hi don't have anything of that but i do have a story about what is going on in the friendship

Amanda_George

  • Please be gentle with me!
  • Administrator
  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 4255
  • "Auntie Banana"
    • Amanda's ultimate navigation to all her webpages
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #11 on: February 27, 2016, 06:37:34 PM »
Only tell us the story if you feel comfortable and you change the names of the people involved and stuff, detour!   :happy0158:
Money talks, chocolate sings!  :-D

May your life be as pleasant as you are.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #12 on: February 27, 2016, 08:06:23 PM »
Okay my friend and I had to give each other space for a while. A few weeks ago i saw him at lunch while walking around and seeing my other friends. i happened to look and he was over by the next table and i waved to him and he waved back to me the second time around he waved back. when he saw me he kind of looked sad and he just sat there for a long few mins and finaly got up and threw something away and the can was behind me ,he did not say anything to me. then he sat back down and then after a few mins he got out homework. and he a few times he look up ,sometimes at me and sometimes around the cafe.
Then last Friday  ,was pretty good ,When he first saw me he immediately wave to me first. Then later on I saw him and He waved and did a nod and a few times I caught him looking over for a sec. Then at the buses I wave to him and he wave back and then a few seconds he just stood ,there ,like he was waiting for me and then I was  walking slowly and then he took off fast without looking at me ,not sure what that was about. Then last week  I waved to him  and he waved back. Then when he saw me he later he waved back to me. Then at lunch I waved to him and he waved back but when lunch ended I was with my other friend a (girl) and I think he saw me ,he was looking forward but when I waved he waved the second time around. Not really sure what's going o
Then when I was walking to the buses I saw him and he waved to me and I was opening a soda and I spilled a little and then he smiled and then waved again
Also today at school I saw him and he wave and I wave but he was looking at the ground. But did wave to me. Then later on I saw him still looking at the ground but still wave to me. Then when I was heading to lunch I saw him and his friend walking their go to a another class when his friend was getting his lunch my friend decided to go with him ,so I wave to him it took a few times for him to response ,still looking at the ground but did wave and I high fived him. Then the last class of the day ,I wave to him and he waved to me ,he was kind of looking side ways but did wave a few times
Hi I waved to him and he waved back and I high fived him and he did it back to me and when he was walking up the stairs and when he got to the top he look back down and then look away and went to class. Then later on I saw him he was walking and rubbing his eyes and I wave ,a few times and then he wave and he wave and said hi and the feeling I got he was excited.
,Now yesterday  I saw him ,I wave to him and he waved back and I high five him and he did it back and later I saw him I wave to him he waved back but had a smile on his face ,which he was trying to hide ,he was looking on the ground and  I said hi and he said hi back. Then later at the buses I waited for me ,(just to see his inaction) I wave to him and he waved back ,I did the bunny ears over a teachers head and he look over and smiled at me and then I wave back and he wave bye.
 I came in late for school and i went to see him in the hall when the ball rang and I wave to him and I went up to him and gave him a high five ,he got kind of close to me when he did it and kind of look down at me. Then later on at lunch I saw him I wave to him ,when he was walking I went toward him and we wave and then someone was in the way I high five him ,he high five back ,he pause. Then after lunch I saw him he was looking fast but I manner to catch up to him and wave to him and he wave back and kind of pause and I went over and I wave to him and he wave back and high five ,then he walk slowly after I left
Why would he act like this for ?
Then Friday I saw him in the morning I wave to him and he wave back and I high five him and he did it back and then later that day I wave to him and he wave back. Then I was not pay attention he walk by and then I caught him I wave to him and I was signing to come her and he smiled and point straight and I went over to him and high five him ,he waited and then when school was over ,I waited for him I had a coffee and I said shh ,cause we are not allow to have coffee in the halls but I was school was over ,I don’t think it was really breaking the rules. Anyways he smiled when I did that and then we high five and when I was going out he decided to go out the same door as me but he was looking straight and but when I stuck my hand out for a high five he gave it and that’s was it
Then I saw him I waved to him and he wave back with both his hands and arms
Then we high five
Then later I saw him walking and I went to see him ,took him a few mins to see me but I finaly got his attention by going boo and he saw me and look up I wave and he waved as well
 Then today I saw him he had his hand in his pocket so he he saw me he took it out and we high five and then later I saw him I wave and he wave back by looking at me and then I high five him and he look at the grounds and walk away
Yesterday  it seem like he gave me the cold shoulder but when I wave he wave back to me and high five but it seem like he was trying to avoid me or something

Today it went okay ,I was walking around and he happened to come around the Conner not sure if he saw me or not but I saw him look over and he was walking fast ,I wave to him and he waved back the second time. 
then i saw him and first he saw me and he took his hand out of his pocket and waved and i waved back and then i saw him at lunch i waved to him and he waved back and then i saw him glazing over at me a few times ,not sure if he was looking at me but i was looking and then he stood there for a good 5 mins and he took off looking straight and
Okay so Friday I put a test to something I waited for him to wave first and he did wave first and. I did this two times in a row and he did it two times first.
well today also i saw him and the second time he waved to me first and then at lunch i got there first and he saw me and i wave to him and he waved back and he sat down a table ,alone ,i left to go get something and when i got back he was gone

Then I saw him and I waved to him and he wave  back and without look at me directly and he was waving very quickly and seem to be in a rush
does he miss me also we are both males

Pip

  • Administrator
  • Super Hero
  • *****
  • Posts: 6888
    • Soul of Adoption
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #13 on: February 27, 2016, 08:55:26 PM »
How old are you?

Hope you don't mind me asking but it would help me to answer better.  All you can do is to carry on being friendly from a distance and hopefully he will understand that you want the friendship with him.

detour12

  • Karma Group
  • Newbie
  • *****
  • Posts: 12
Re: i am very depressed please help
« Reply #14 on: February 27, 2016, 08:57:00 PM »
hi i am 20