Shakes

[lightenup]

This week has been quite momentous, I agreed to go with another friend for 2 days after my CBT so I could also visit another best friend.  Had a nice time seeing the countryside around me, (this was part of my job too, and bonus when working in the west of Ireland) however seen someone who was and ex work colleague, and hid in the car, but my mate told them I was there! so annoyed.  So deep deep panic set in, they wouldn't leave me alone chatting.  Had a great time seeing my mate though, (she knows I'm not well and we talk weekly).  Friday involved taking my dad to hospital for a day procedure (now waiting the results).
My darling husband had declared we were going shopping today, as I have bought nothing new since last summer, and really couldn't care less, he is trying to get me out and about.  He is also trying to get me to go to hairdressers! think I must look like a real dog  &^%.  Anyway on Friday Dr's have rang re another problem I have with high lipids, even though on statins, I also got a letter informing of  an impending board.  Upshot is that the feeling of a lump in my throat is constantly back, and today while shopping we went for a coffee and have taken a bad dose of the shakes (my hubby noticed this), I am shaking inside .  Sorry for the rant, just feel so anxious and a total wreck, so sick of all this..........
I so though I was taking a step forward this week too "£$  

Hope you are all feeling well.  

[junior]

Hi lightenup, you have had a hard week from what you have posted, it sounds like you husband it trying to help you feel better about yourself, sometimes a new image can start a new way of thinking sort of like your leaving the bad stuff behind and your a new person, it helped me.
Hope things get easier for you.
Junior

[bel]

Hi lightenup,

that's a lot of stuff you've dealt with in one week. So please don't be hard on yourself for feeling low. Unfortunately there are a few downs along the way sometimes. Try to be nice to yourself, and definitely let your husband spoil you a bit 

have a (((hug))) from me too.

[lightenup]

Hi Bel & Junior, thanks for your kind words, it just everything as past while seems to piling on more and more, I just what to get better, and the logical part of my brain tells me what I should be doing but finding it tough at the moment.  BTW I know I am lucky I have a great hubby and he is trying to help .............. but the painic is setting in big time. 

[bel]

It is hard when you know what you need to do, but can't manage to do it. I've found it goes in phases and some days I feel stronger than others. Just do what you can and be gentle with yourself until you feel a bit stronger.