Never done this before

[Burley]

Hi All,

I have never even been on a forum of any kind before so im very new to this, I joined because nothing else is working and I struggle to talk to people about how I feel as it doesnt make sense to me so why should it make sense to anyone else Just wanted a bit of help I dont want to be like this forever. Guess I should first give you guys a profile of myself  I am 27 years old and have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember although it was only diagnose and named 9 years ago when I was first diagnosed I was really bad and used to self harm and had attempted other stuff too My Auntie wanted me committed, I was on prozac for 2 years and was then moved to venlafaxine for 4 years these helped but never solved anything3 years agoo i came off medication successfully and stayed off for 2 years I still had bad days but not as many and i coped with it however about a year ago I had to go back on medication because I got really bad again I currently take 150mg of venlafaxine a day which helps but I still have really bad days where I cant leave the house I have managed to hold down a job (I have no idea how because i have a lot of time off sick) I see a psychiatrist every few months but I dont find this helps they have tried to send me for CBT but they have it in group sessions and I can not handle that amount of people.

Im hear because I have started having thoughts about hurting myself again and i know i need to do something about it so im hoping some of you guys will be able to give me some help and advice

PS sorry for the very long post

[lightenup]

Hi Burley, a warm  !"£ to the forum, sorry your feeling poorly again.  I go to CBT on a one to one basis, through the NHS, I definately couldn't go on a group basis.  I suppose the basis is the same for trying to break the cycle, but I couldn't speak at all in a group or go into a group session.  On this forum it allows you to express your feelings with the knowledge you are not alone.  Great to see someone on that has got well (even for a short period), I would say you have take the first step to getting better by acknowleging you are unwell again.  Please keep some great moments in your life to the forfront of your mind, when you feel really low (thats what I do), try listening to music or doing something you enjoy to try and take your mind of things.  Take care and keep posting   

[bel]

Hi Burley, and  !"£

[Burley]

Hi guys and thank you for the warm welcome

Burley  %$£

[Shenanigans]

Hi Burley, Im new to. I understand what you said about not being able to explain to people when you cant understand it yourself. The main thing is, like me youve joined the forum, Its a big step and im posetive it will do you good.  ()_