Depression has been part of my life so long that i dont know what it feels like to feel "normal" anymore but recently things have been spiraling out of control and i feel helpless to stop it, so many different meds so many different doctors and im not any further forward. Started a new med recently (Duloxtetine) and things are worse than EVER!!! Im not sleeping, not eating, living off coffee and cigs, stuck in this "black hole" that i cant find my way out of and the way i am is starting to affect my kids, so off to the docs i go this morning to be told "Hang on in there with the meds" i dont know maybe im looking for something that im never gonna find, someone/something to take all this pain, guilt, sadness, self hatred, confusion, frustration, anger and many many other emotions away, the emotional rollercoaster that i ride on everyday goes so fast with ups and down that go so high to so low in no time that i have this constant knot of sickness in my stomach, sometimes i cant even tell which emotion is which like they've kinda all merged into one, which one? i dont even know! will i ever know? Will i ever see any positivity? will i ever be able to get off this ride that i hate so much? I really need some advice right now from someone who has been here and finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel, any advice is welcome!! Thanx x
