hi, so i'm new here, my name's niall, i'm 20 years old, currently at university studying music technology. i'll try not to go on for too long here... suffered from depression/dysthymia since i was around 14 years old, had a pretty bad time in school and so far a pretty bad time at university too. in the last three/four years i've also developed a quite severe drinking problem.
i've had various forms of counselling/therapy including CBT, and medication (which i'm really not keen on the idea of), but nothing has changed and it's been so long that it feels it never will. nothing is enjoyable for me anymore. i feel like my life is going nowhere, can't find a job, not all that well endowed with friends, havent been on so much as a date in almost a year, and i'm about as well known as a musician now (my dream is to do the music thing full time, sad i know) as i was when i was seventeen, the only difference is that the rubbish open mic nights i play at are in a different city. i want to believe things will get better, but lately i just can't.
think i've written quite enough.. nice to meet you all, anyhow.
