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Jess

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May have another issue on my plate
« on: January 01, 2011, 01:11:09 AM »
Hiya again,

Yep im back, depression is still as bad maybe even worse but i've found myself doing something odd.

I keep pulling out my hair, it started with it on the odd occasion but now i'm pulling out chunks and i feel compelled to do it, when i try to stop i feel sad well worse than usual, aparantly this is a form of self mutilation, honestly im worried, i pulled out my hair when i was about four andi had to have it cut off, i can't think of any stressers to cause this, im still on the verge of suicide.

I mean im typing this in the second hour of a new year, the time when i should be celebrating but no im sitting typing this.

Any words of advice or a general pick me up is always welcomed.

Thanks for reading, love Jess x

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #1 on: January 01, 2011, 12:38:23 PM »
Hi jess, im sorry you are finding life so hard, have you been to the doctors about your thoughts? Some people find snapping an elastic band on their wrist helps, sounds better than pulling your hair out but I myself have never tried the band.
Hope you feel better soon.
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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #2 on: January 01, 2011, 01:08:14 PM »
Hi Jess,

Sorry you're in a bad place. Pulling out hair is a new one to me, but sounds like a sort of way of distracting yourself from the bad thoughts. I was bulimic for many years - totally different problem but maybe a similar attempt to hide from the bad stuff. I don't think it needs to have a particular stresser to cause this kind of thing, just depression and general difficulties. I'm sure it must be distressing for you but try not to worry about the hair itself too much, it sounds like part of your bigger issues. I agree with junior - talking to someone may help you. pm if you like - I know I don't really have answers, but I will listen.

And don't worry that you "should" have been celebrating New Year. There will be plenty of other times to celebrate when you will feel like it. Still, I hope 2011 will be better for you.

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #3 on: January 06, 2011, 01:32:06 AM »
If the hair pulling is something you do without realising, then suddenly you realise and think 'oops I'm doing it again' then I wouldn't worry too much as it's an unconscious 'tick' (for want of a better word) and you've also, actually noticed, meaning you can monitor the situation.
It's a similar (and yet different) condition to what I suffer from when I sleep, I clench my fists. Though I don't have nightmares or night-terrors, I quite often wake up with incredible pain in my hands and my palms are bleeding from where my nails have dug into the skin.

If your hair pulling is becoming something you do consciously, or even as a 'comforter' I'd say the same as the other replies on here, see your Doc.
Self harm is a road nobody should go down as it can start very small and then escalate to something very serious, very rapidly.

Good luck.
Everyone has a b@stard, whether it's an Inner Demon, or some self important @rse who looms over your every move.
The trick is to not let the b@stards grind you down. Shed a cleansing tear, then stand tall and be humbled in knowing that you are much better than they will ever be...
... and you will get stronger.

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #4 on: January 07, 2011, 07:35:25 PM »
Thank you all for your replies, for some reason this issue hasn't been so bad since i posted about it, i suppose it could be because i told somebody, maybe not personally but it is not locked inside.

Hope you are all ok,

love Jess x

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #5 on: January 07, 2011, 09:07:14 PM »
Hi Jess, glad your feeling a little better, we are always listening so you take care and stay safe ;) I know sometimes we don't always answer, but at least I know someone is always listening and we will each other to get better even though it feels "£$ &^%
Poor is the person who takes pleasure out of the persecution of others

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #6 on: January 08, 2011, 11:15:46 AM »
Jess, that's good news  :)
Take care, bel

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #7 on: January 08, 2011, 07:30:36 PM »
Hi Jess, its good to hear you are feeling better, its strange how something as simple as talk helps so much but it has helped me so many times.
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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #8 on: January 15, 2011, 02:24:05 PM »
Thanks again for all of the replies, im doing alright at the moment not great but alright. Thank you fo the support and kind words. I hope you all are doing well

Love Jess x

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Re: May have another issue on my plate
« Reply #9 on: February 26, 2011, 03:42:08 PM »
Hi Jess have you researched Trichotillomania?

Trichotillomania, the compulsive urge to pull out one's own hair, is recognised as a disorder leading to noticeable hair loss, distress, and social or functional impairment. Trichotillomania may be present in infants, but the peak age of onset is 9 to 13. It may be triggered by depression or stress.

It is classified in DSM-IV as an impulse control disorder with pyromania, pathological gambling and kleptomania, and includes the criterion of an increasing sense of tension before pulling the hair and gratification or relief when pulling the hair.[1] However, some people with trichotillomania do not endorse the inclusion of "rising tension and subsequent pleasure, gratification, or relief" as part of the criteria;[1] because many individuals with trichotillomania may not realize they are pulling their hair, patients presenting for diagnosis may deny the criteria for tension prior to hair pulling or a sense of gratification after hair is pulled.[3]

Trichotillomania has been hypothesized to lie on the obsessive–compulsive spectrum, which is proposed to encompass obsessive–compulsive disorder, nail biting (onychophagia) and skin picking (dermatillomania), tic disorders and eating disorders. These conditions may share clinical features, genetic contributions, and possibly treatment response; however, differences between trichotillomania and OCD are present in symptoms, neural function and cognitive profile.[1] In the sense that it is associated with irresistible urges to perform unwanted repetitive behavior, trichotillomania is akin to some of these conditions, and rates of trichotillomania among relatives of OCD patients is higher than expected by chance.[1] However, differences between the disorder and OCD have been noted including differing peak ages at onset, rates of comorbidity, gender differences, and neural dysfunction and cognitive profile.[1] When it occurs in early childhood, it can be regarded as a distinct clinical entity.[1]

Because trichotillomania can present in multiple age groups, it is helpful in terms of prognosis and treatment to approach three distinct subgroups by age: preschool age children, preadolescents to young adults, and adults.[3]

I sometimes pull the hair out of my eyebrows if I am anxious, and my nails are smooth on top were I constantly run them either across my lips or rub my thumbs over them. And I also repetively stroke strands of my hair. But I don't pull out the hair on my head....I can imagine it must be very stressful for you. The elastic band thing never worked for me, but I guess running your nails over your lips is harmless, you could try that. (I don't mean the tip, but the flat surface)

Trichotillomania is often not a focused act, but rather hair pulling occurs in a "trance-like" state;[4] hence, trichotillomania is subdivided into "automatic" versus "focused" hair pulling.[3] Children are more often in the automatic, or subconscious, subtype and may not consciously remember pulling their hair. Other individuals may have focused, or conscious, rituals associated with hair pulling, including seeking specific types of hairs to pull, pulling until the hair feels "just right", or pulling in response to a specific sensation.[3]

I copied this from wikipedia.