today was a bad day

[niz]

I have been off meds now for 3 weeks, felt great at first but today I hit the floor, argueing with my wife, punched the wall, feelibg worthless, tired, sick of eork and snapping at people, even thought about hanging myself in work as no one around when i get there and st least my body would be found, so tired of my life, I am broken and there is no one to help me get better. What do i have to do to feel alive :-(

[Pip]

Please get in touch with your GP on Monday as you do need support.

[niz]

I will, really thought i was doing well :-(

[kutuup]

The thing you have to remember is that this is a VERY aggressive illness, but it isn't permanent. It will kick you while you're down and take cheap shots when you feel good, but in the end, it's nothing more than a bully. Bullies can be beaten. They shout very loud and beat you up, but they're not invulnerable. Stick it out and go the distance and it will give up. Think of it as a physical being. I know you can beat it. Everyone here has your back. It CANT win, it can make you feel like hell, but it doesn't stand a chance, in the long run, it will lose.

[Sweetpea]

Niz I do hope you got to see your Dr today.  Let us know when you can.

X x

[niz]

Hi, I have to try again tommorow for docs , it works on ringback system and i never got a call back, not even sure what to tell him apart from how i have been feeling :-(

[Sweetpea]

I do hope you can get through to your DR's today. Maybe try writing down how you are feeling, so you can take this with you to make it easier for you.  My thoughts are with you.

X x

[niz]

Hi, rang my gp today and tod me try different meds, fluoxetine. I just hope it works as cilitropam seemed to run out of steam with me. Thanks for the advice and words of support everyone x

[Sweetpea]

Thank goodness you got to speak to your Dr. Citalopram was OK at first for me but stopped working. I do so hope the new meds work for you.

Thinking of you ((((( hugs )))))

X x