On the road to recovery... I think

[Farah]

Hey I'm new on the site and found out about joining the forum through the depression cure book.

I started feeling depressed whilst I was studying my a levels and didn't get the grades I wanted to get to study Biology at a Russell group university. I was bullied a bit by some girls in my History class who used to say things like " I hate her" to me. At uni I felt depressed again because I didn't manage to pass my finals and I feel like I was cursed by some girl in my old history class because I couldn't go out properly and kept masturbating in my room.

Once I left uni without my final year passed I began therapy, thanks to my mum and started taking anti- depressants and have done so for the past 3 1/2 yrs. I see a nurse called Zoe weekly and she has been really supportive of me. I am trying to follow the depression cure by Steve ilardi and that is helping me a bit. The other problem that I have is that I have been unemployed since I left uni as well. I worked as a welfare assistant for 8 months which was just working lunchtimes in a primary school supervising children's behaviour.

I find it hard to make good friends in life and I am also looking for the right man to settle down and have kids with.

[Pip]

Welcome Farah,

It's not easy suffering with depression or having to deal with bullying in the past.  Bullies don't realize that their bullying can be very damaging.

Having support does help so it's good that you are getting that.  The members here will understand how you are feeling and it's a safe place to post.

[stewart]

Hi Farah, welcome to the forums.
Bullying at school and then not getting the grades you expected could well be at the base of your depression. I always recommend MIND if you have one in your area, they have some great support workers, and can help in many ways.
 
You have made a good step with the welfare assistant task, and have good thoughts for the future, you could also take a step and go back to uni to finish your degree.