Back again ...

[Els]

Hello...
I haven't been on here for a while but right now I don't know where else to turn. I think my depression is back and I don't know what to do. I really want to fight it but it's taking over me! I'm really stressed at work, I've lost 2 close people since the start of the year and I'm just not coping! I've been off my meds for nearly 2 years. I feel so alone and nobody around me understands!

[JC]

Hello Els

I can't tell you what to do but if you are feeling depressed and unable to cope it is worthwhile making an appointment to discuss this with your GP as s/he will be able to assess if your depression is back and offer you the appropriate support.

Over the past 18 months I have had two major bereavements and also lost some people that I was very close to so I can understand why you are not coping very well at the moment. Your losses must be on your mind a lot of the time so I am not surprised you are finding work stressful. Are you able to talk to your employer about how you are feeling? If you can perhaps you could discuss re-assignment of duties to relieve you of the most stressful aspects of your job until you feel better able to cope.

Your topic subject is "Back again" so I hope you know that you do not have to feel so alone. I have found that people here are so friendly, supportive and understanding that there is always someone willing to offer support and advice.

[Pip]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this but glad you have been able to post.  It is a good idea to see your GP though.  It is hard when you go through bereavements  which will take time to get through.  Allow yourself to grieve at your pace and don't worry about what others think.

[Els]

I finally made the decision to see my Doctor. I can't get in till the 31st though but at least I have booked the appointment.
I've just been feeling lower and lower. My panic attacks have started up again too and I don't know how to deal with them. They come from nowhere


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[Sweetpea]

Hello Els, I am glad you have made an appointment with your Dr. Between now and then try to write down how you are feeling, so you can take this with you when you go.  I know when I went to my Dr for the first time with derprression all I could do was cry as I felt so desperate and low,

Panic attacks are very scary and you have my sympathy,

Hugs S x