Hello, not been on here for a while as have been doing ok, keeping myself busy , etc. Trouble is last few weeks a s Christmas draws nearer I have started feeling down, even the medication I am on does not seem to work. Starting to worry about finances one of my daughters is already telling me Christmas is going to be rubbish because I cant afford all the gifts she wants, My wife and myself cant buy each other anything and even doing the food shop is going to be tight, we are having to be strict on what and who we buy for relation wise. I feel the next few weeks might break me and on the 25th it will be a breaking point for me feeling a failure for letting my family down. I am the only working person at home, my wife has been trying for work for ages and just keeps getting knocked back for every job she goes for. Tried talking to a couple of people in work about it but they don't understand and just call me scrooge, Its the works Christmas party soon and even though the event is paid for you still need to pay for taxi there and back, some drinks and I would need new clothes, so I have had to opt out making an excuse that I cant make it, now I'm starting to feel alienated in work as discussions are all abut the works do and Christmas, not a good end to my year!
