mid 20s low and tearful,unsure y,no interest in anything,helpless feelings

[sam87]

Hello evryone. Im new here. This is the first site ive joined to speak about my depression. I feel low everyday. I do work fulltime and whilst at work i am usually pretty ok. When i get home its like theres a dark cloud over me. I feel tearful, helpless, cannot not focus on doing anything, i fear things that havent even happened and may never happen. I live with my fiance and he is great and treats me like a princess. Regardless of that i still feel low.nothing seems to be missing in my life, i wish i knew what the problem was and why i feel this way

[stewart]

Hi Sam, welcome to the forums.

it is understandable you are relativly ok at work, your mind is on the job, but when you get home your mind opens up to all the thoughts that bring on your depression.
having a supportive partner is very good, have you sen your doc abou8t the depression?
there are a wide veriety of medications they can offer you, depending on how the depression affects your life.

[sam87]

hello, thanks for your reply. I have seen my Dr about this. I also suffer from ibs. I have been on amitriptyline but the liquid form, as I panic trying to swallow tablets. i have 1 teaspoon at night, this is an antidepressant and has worked effectively for ibs suffers too, my ibs symptoms are a lot better since being on this medication. I often feel like i am in a daze, as if my eyes aren't focusing on things around as if I'm staring then i find myself lost in thought and not looking at what i should be i.e the t.v.  Its hard to explain. I am abit of a hypochondriac too & am convinced there is something seriously wrong with me. I have lost both my nans and dad within the last 8years which does play a part in how i feel as i still cry over my dad. How quickly my dad was taken because of cancer, i live in fear that the same will happen to me and i seem to look out for problems with my body and instantly fear the worst. I don't really have a social life. Anything i do i do with my partner.

[Pip]

 :welcome: 

Having close family isn't going to help with being depression.  There are medical conditions that run in my family and I remember when my dad was in his 50's he had a fear of dying of a heart attack like my Poppa had (his father) and there is a history of heart attacks in that side of the family.  A few of my dad's work colleagues who had died in their 60's as well so feared retiring then dying.  He was able to take redundancy at 54 with a large payout plus his pension so he took it.  It's now thirty years on and my dad is still is active and he also beat cancer 14 years ago.   

[Grace]

How very true what Pip wrote!!! I think it would be very sensible if we try to live out present moment fully for this is what we have in our hands! Then it becomes the past and it will be no use pining over it...... and the future we never know .....!!

But Sam87 I dare say that Amytriptyline isn't at a therapeutic dose, mabe it's helping with ibs but not the way you feel now. Maybe you should describe your present feelings better to your doctor and perhaps with the right amount of medication you can emeliorate your mood.
I really wish you the best!!
Grace

[Chippers82]

I totally understand what you're saying. I worry myself to death about things that haven't even happened, i spent three days worried sick that when i'm old ill be put in a home and abused. Its horrendous, i feel like i. Losing my mind, as though i have no control over my thoughts.
Im on quite a high dosage anti depressant and so far nothing's helping.
Sorry to talk about myself, i just wanted you to know that there are others who feel like you.

[Pip]

Chippers, it helps when a member can relate as depression can be so isolating so it helps knowing that you're not alonse in how you feel.