Please help? :(

[Sadface82]

Hi.

I am new here. I've trying to find some answers online as I really don't feel like talking to anyone close to me. . . I am afraid there is something wrong with me. I've always since a teenager felt that something was not quite right but now its getting worse and worse. I am going to be 28 soon. I always feel so up and down its impossible! Even during the same day I might be super excited the one minute and depressed the next having bad thoughts. . . or sometimes it lasts more.. I really feel I can't control it! I will organise to see a friend and be so happy to meet them and then minute I will find an excuse and cancel cause I suddenly feel depressed and lost. . .

I could go on and on about this. I guess my question is am I overacting? Is this how all people are? I really would like to talk about this to someone but I don't feel I can. I've got a dad who has got some psychiatric history (though none of the family know exactly what it is) so I often wonder if I'm the same. . . I don't think I can burden my husband with telling him I don't feel well. I really don't think he would cope.

Please any ideas are welcome. I really am lost. . .

[lightenup]

Firstly can I say a warm welcome to the forum, your husband probably knows there is something wrong in his own way.  It is difficult to ask for help and worse to admit you have a problem.  It took a while for my Dr to diagnose my problems, as I had bad chest pains, being physically sick, sleeplessness etc.  All down to my anxiety and depression.  Don't be ashamed to ask for help, before your condition gets worse.  Speak to your husband, find out ways to help yourself, part of my recouperation is being nice to myself (I'm my worse critic) do things you enjoy, go out for a walk, and take time out for yourself.  Take care.   

[junior]

Hi welcome to the forum, I think lightenup said it all, if you need help please see your doctor they can help in alot of ways not just with med's.
The way you are feeling is normal for a depressed person but when we start to think of suicide its time to get help for yourself and your family.
Junior

[bel]

Hi Sadface and welcome. Sounds to me like you have some sort of depression. Agree with lightenup and junior, please try to get help. You've made a first step by sharing on here. Good luck.
bel