How are you feeling?

[Pip]

Not one of my better days.  Since last posting here I've sprained my ankle (week last Friday) which became swollen and bruised, by Monday I had the start of cellulitis on my right leg and by Tuesday I was at the hospital as it was all over my right leg between my knee and ankle.  A nurse had the 'pleasure' of bursting a blister then dressing my leg which has been redressed every day except today.  I'm exhausted as since Tuesday I have had a lie down in the afternoon until yesterday and as family have been visiting.   

[Pip]

Having a really bad day.  I didn't sleep well last night, feeling very depressed and back to finding it hard to look at my leg when the dressing is changed.  The right side of my foot looks worse and my leg still looks horrible where it's still infected. 

[RedAlex76]

How am I feeling today?

Well lets see its the day of yet another over commercialised and pointless 'Saints Day'. I haven't slept properly in 3 days (a total of 15 hours broken sleep over 3 nites) with the strong feeling sleep will be a struggle again tonite 

So how am I feeling today ....... Overly tired and resentful for having to make someone feel special with an over priced piece of card that somehowis supposed to show how much I 'love' them!

All in all not the best day!

[RedAlex76]

So twenty-four hours have passed and how do I feel today. To be brutally honest nothing has changed apart from the fact i have had two glasses of wine to see if it will help me sleep better!

Well somethings got to work hasn't it!

And if we're being completely honest I wish I could have finished the bottle just for that extra little bitof help! But alas I was stoppped from doing that!

But maybe that is a good thing cause I'm not sure I could handle the fact that the only way I could get to sleep is with Alcohol!

So then everyone keep your fingers crossed and lets hope I finally get a good nites sleep after so very very long (but I'm not keeping my hopes up though)

[Pip]

Sorry you're having a tough time.

I'm feeling a bit better in myself today.  It has probably helped getting out to church this morning and seeing friends.  Still fed up my leg not being back to normal and being redressed every other day.  I can see where it's getting better but I have to keep to keep my leg bandaged to stop any germs in the air getting to it.  Having pets doesn't help because of their fur.

[ParsnipPierre]

Hello folks,
Sorry I haven't been on here much to post when you have been struggling.  I hope your leg gets better soon Pip, sounds like it is very painful.  Are you under the care of the district nurses, and do they come to dress it on a daily basis?  How is the depression faring?  Are things still seeming pretty bad?  In terms of Valentine's Day I don't really bother with it because it only makes me feel worse.  If you're with someone then like you say, why do you need a day to tell someone you love them.  If you are single then it only adds to the depression.  For the first time in forever I sent someone a card, which was mainly a bit of a laugh but I am praying something comes from it because I do really like them.  I don't think mentally I could cope with a relationship but I do think it could temporarily improve my mood.  How has everyone managed with the weekend?
PP

[Pip]

Hi PP

I can't remember if you know I have had cellulitis.  Yes I am under the care of the district nurses who have been lovely.  At first the dressing was being changed daily then at the beginning of the second week they suggested t was done every other day.  As we had borrowed a wheelchair from church and my hubby was getting fitter from when he had the procedure to try and get a stent in the blocked artery - couldn't be done so it's down to medication and exercising - that I go to the surgery for it to be changed.  Hubby got an appointment made in front of the nurse and got one for the Wednesday.  The following day he had an appointment with the GP which was just as well because my leg had leaked badly so he took me along.  Fortunately I was able to see one of the nurses who changed the dressing straight away.  I went for the Wednesday appointment and saw one of the other nurses who was furious when she saw the state of my leg.  She told me that the district nurses shouldn't have expected me to get to the surgery and I shouldn't have been out with it being so bad.  She was annoyed for my sake so told us she would arrange for the district nurses to come out daily starting from the Thursday.  The dressing was changed every day until last Monday and it's been changed every other day since then.   

It does look better now and the dressing isn't sticking to my leg so much now.  It does help that the skin is drying up now and that the top layer of skin is coming away.  There is healthy skin underneath.  I'm hoping it won't be much longer as it's been three weeks now.

My mood has been up and down with it being more down than up.  A couple of days ago it was really bad and I don't think it has been helped because of my leg.  I wasn't able to go out without hubby to start off with as I was ill with the infection and had been advised to rest with my leg raised and preferably that I lay in bed.  My independence had been taken away from me.  The past week I have been gradually getting more independent but it has got to me badly over my leg.  There have been days that I haven't been able to look at my leg when the dressing has been changed as it's upset me too much.  Today has been a better day as I have been out twice and seen friends both times.  They are happy to see me out and about walking unaided.

[Pip]

I am having more good days than bad ones and helps that I am back to normal with helping at the lunch club on Tuesdays and Thursdays again.  Keeping busy generally helps my mood.  The first day back ~ last Thursday  I had my orders that if I had problems with my leg to go home but it was fine so I stayed till 1.30 pm which is the usual time for me disappearing.  It's been nice though with the amount of people asking how I am and they were happy to see me back.  Today has been the first Wednesday for the Lent lunches which was at one of the Catholic Church, next week is at our church then another 3 at different churches.  It was nice as there were a few of us from our church but everybody was chatty.  The weather being good for the past two days has also helped my mood as it's been warm enough not to wear a jacket. 

[Sweetpea]

Good to hear you are back at lunch club.  The weather certainly makes a difference, the sun always helps lift my mood.  So what are you giving up for lent?

s x

[Pip]

Junk food, it serves a purpose of giving up for Lent and hopefully keeping up with it  .

Today is another good day for me even though I have achy feet after being on them for 4 1/2 hours.  It can be hard work as we have to get the meals on wheels food ready for 11 am then be ready for noon for the people who come in for the lunch club.  Getting so many 'thank yous' afterwards always make it worthwhile

[Sweetpea]

Lol junk food sounds like a good thing to give up.

The lunch club sounds like hard work, but so worth it I am sure.  The elderly folk must be so grateful.

Hope you have your feet up resting this evening.

S x

[Pip]

We were at bible study last night but at least I was sitting down.  Our discussion completely derailed which isn't anything new and we usually end up having funny chats.

I've finally been taken off the district nurses book which is great news for me.  It's been a restful day for me and tonight we are going to an auction at our church.  They have a thrift shop so every few months there is an auction to clear things quickly.  We got our three piece suite for £20 from there and it looked like new. 

[Sweetpea]

Mums prayer meetings very often end up the same way.

Brilliant news that you have been signed off by the nurses.  Hope you manage to find another bargain this evening.

I am feeling tired but OK.  The weather being brighter always lifts my mood.

X x x

[Pip]

There were three things we after but only got one.  I was interested in a Geortge Foreman gtill but the bidding went up higher than we were prepared to pay, the same with another monitor.  The one we got doesn't work and just flashes on and off.  We only paid £1vwhich is just as well.  All money raised went to church.

Today started well then my mood dropped this afternoon for no reason I can think.  Went to bed for a couple of jours this afternoon for a couple of hours which has helped a bit.

[Fig]

Hello!  I haven't been here in a while....

It's Monday morning, almost 5am...I've been up since 3.  I've been waking up very early like this for a long time now. the earliest I wake is 2am, the latest is 4:30am.  Needless to say, I'm very tired. I do not nap during the day, perhaps I should.....

I've been feeling rather down...ok, genuinely crappy. I finally found a great therapist. She is wonderful and is helping me.  right now she's on vacation for 2 weeks.

I feel sad and lonely, despite keeping busy and seeing my boyfriend every day.  My eating disorder is going full force...I'm restricting like mad, and this gives me comfort, odd as that may sound.