How are you feeling?

[Chocobo]

There is not a word for how low i feel today... Well the past few days... Cant stop crying either, so frustrating!

[Pip]

It's felt like a long day here despite being out twice which included a long walk with the dogs.  They seemed to enjoy it more today as there has been a lovely cool breeze.  All I can put it down to is not helping with the lunch club yesterday which is tiring to do as we're there for at least 4 hours so Saturday is usually my relaxing day.  Last night I slept well for a change though.

[craig84]

I may open a vent topic ina mintute until then can you start one and I finish it ...... had a pretty brilliant yet absolutely &$%+ day myself

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey folks how is everyone doing?I've just got back off my holiday and i feel the best I have in a while.I laughed more in the past week than I have all year and I even started making plans for next year where as before 2014 didn't exist cos i never knew how i'd get there.I haven't taken my mirtazapine all week due to late night drinking every night and early starts, the sedation would have been too strong.I've come to the conclusion that my depression comes on with my job,my work colleagues and the people i associate with but how on Earth do I address that without completely cutting myself off from people and move away?At this point i'm good and coping,hope everyone else is having a better time.I booked myself a weekend away to combat post holiday blues for a fortnight so least i can look forward to something.
Speak soon
PP

[Pip]

Have had a pretty good day all in all.  Been at church this morning as hubby and I are shampooing the carpets in the chapel and the hall.  We are using a vax which isn't ideal for all the area needing to be done but the church can't afford an industrial one.  I find it quite relaxing doing it though once I get going probably as it's a gentle motion moving the vax backwards and forwards.  My back was a bit achy afterwards but I hadn't over done it.  This afternoon I have been getting on with stuff I wanted to do online.

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey,
Hope you are having a more relaxing day today Pip,otherwise you'll be doing your back in!Sounds like you had a very prosperous day,i hope today is the same for you.Am having a bit of a struggle tpday feeling anxious again and worrying/stressing over everything-so much to do at work,not being able to get in at docs for my meds just everything.Had a lapse and gone to pub on my lunch our for a double vodka which i haven't done in over a month where as normally i go for coffee but my coping mechanism and the effects of mirtazapine have been pushed too far today.I feel I can only relax with a drink.I've totally shut myself off from people today don't feel i can talk to anyone but i have plans to meet a friend tonight but ain't really up for it.I can't cancel either cos i did last time so gonna have to pretend everything is hunky dory -,- how is your neighbour these days,has things improved?
Hope you are having a good day
Deflated PP

[Pip]

Our neighbour has a new way of annoying us.  He hasn't spoken to me since the last time he upset me but then when he sees me my husband has been with me.  The man is too much of a coward to be nasty to me when I'm not on my own.

He has a beautiful spaniel called Max that is very friendly.  The usual problem is that he never has his dog on the lead when he has the dog out with him.  It isn't a problem when we are out without ours but when we do he has no control over Max.  Our two were attacked when they were puppies so they are fine with humans but don't like adult dogs, puppies and kittens they do like.  He knows this but doesn't care and it gives him an excuse to complain.  Anyway the latest is that he has left Max a few times on his own over the past week and he howls when he is on his own.  One morning, a couple of days ago, Max was crying from about 6 am until about 11 am when the neighbour or his wife got home

I've been anxious and irritable since Tuesday morning as an idiot cut our telephone wire.  It wouldn't be so bad if neither of us had health problems.  My husband had tests done yesterday because he suffers with angina and I couldn't go with him.  We are still waiting for it to be fixed although it has been temporarily fixed.

[ParsnipPierre]

How has your anxiety been over the past few days?Have you managed to get your telephone line fixed?  Least if your neighbour isn't speaking to you he can't make you feel any worse, like he used to by having a go at you.  People are so petty these days it is ridiculous.
I'm really struggling this weekend.  It is the one year anniversary of the works do that f****d with my life today and I just feel forgotten.  All my problems were aired like dirty laundry after that night and people acted like they wanted to help me get better but one year on, I'd go as far as saying I am in a worse state than I was.  I've gotten as far as planning it but cos I'm an only child I couldn't do it to my mum and dad.  If they weren't around, the decision would be so much easier.  I just wanna go out and get absolutely wasted cos that's how I feel but everything I do is watched and I'm "old enough to know better".  I'm supposed to be going out with my mum and dad to the pub tonight but I just don't feel like talking to anyone at all.  Past few days my eating disorder tendencies have come back and even though I'm on a shake diet I'm even scared to have those.  I couldn't care less that it is my birthday Tuesday it will just be another day of suffering.  How is your weekend?
PP

[craig84]

Feeling pretty tired and drained today, probably because of a restless night waking up with sweats freezing my ass off. have been babysitting my nephew today we had a lil party in our room, jumping on the beds and dancing around for a while. love that lil dude, he really looks upto me and I feel guilty sometimes because im so low. I can manage small periods of seeming like nothing is wrong and im back to my old self but there really short lived... I don't know why either.

im doin sheperds pie for dinner with cheesey mash with cheese on top. im a cheese freak I love it. really don't have the energy I don't eat nearly enough as I should atm, I have the shakes from not eating I only had 2 sslices of toast this morning.... I guess ive been pretty active today even though I have no energy, I took the dogs for a walk down the gorge and got attacked by nats, nettles and brambles, haven't been down there for a while I didn't expect it to be like im a celebrity get me out of here.... the dogs enjoyed it though. always brings a bit of happiness to my day when there back at home panting with those smiles on their faces.

just feel like a zombie today ... miserable as always ..... probably helped along by my miserable brother leeching around asking me what he can do..... get a clue that's what... think for yourself I cant be bothered for you right now boy. I kept going upstairs and lying down on my bed with a smile on my face that I could roll around and be comfortable. its the simple things that matter most really....

would be rude to post without acknowledging previous posts.

Pip when you leave i'd report your neighbour to rspca, his not controlling max could end terribly its the same kind of thing that happened with my neighbours staff attacking mine,  kai was on his lead and the other dog just gunned it for him and took a lump out of his leg. days later it attacked the postman im sure I told you.  I cant stand people neglecting their animals. I understand you not wanting to because of the neighbour though. it would only make things worse..

PP .....  how are you doing now was work ok today?

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey,
Sorry to hear you are feeling tired and drained today  least you had your nephew to keep you busy today and if you enjoy spending time with him then there was a positive to your day.
Good lord you do like your cheese haha.  I am a cheese snob, has to be Cathedral City cheese if I ever have it lol.  Never, really have Shepherds Pie much as a family, it's usually always a roast.  Had it the other week on holiday and it was very nice.  Two slices of toast :O would take me about half an hour to eat that and I'd be full for the day.  Glad you had a good walk with the dogs, bet they keep you fit. 
I know what you mean about your room, I go and put my IPod on and lay on my bed when I need time out, so by doing that it probs prevented any rifts. 
Am ok today, work was busy but not as stressful as I had anticipated.  Struggled with my eating a bit today, dint have my shake until about 3ish and then went spinning tonight.  The woman who runs the class pushes you with an inch of death so I had to have another shake and a muffin  which I feel guilty about having but it got me through it and I guess I will have burnt it off.  Just having a banana and a shake for supper and a couple of whiskies.
    

[Pip]

We are thinking about reporting the neighbour over his dog but are more inclined to report it to our housing association.  Max is a beautiful and is well looked after as a rule.  For that reason we will probably have more joy with our HA as the RSPCA will take one look at Max and see he is about the right weight for his breed and he a friendly dog.  He isn't being left at the same time every time he is left so it would mean ringing when he is. On the other hand the HA can do something about it as we are allowed to have pets provided they are kept under control and aren't a nuisance.  We have already complained on a few occasions that the only time Max is on a lead is when the wife takes him out for a walk on her own.  We have come close to having words on a few occasions about Max not being kept under control out the front.  One of these days I can see him either being run over or attacked by another dog.  There is a nasty terrier in the road at the end of our turning.  There have been a few times she has gone for our dogs and the owners are very irresponsible by sitting or standing there calling out to her.  She came close to biting my ankle on a couple of occasions recently.

Been feeling a better the past few days although I have been doing my best to get out each day.  Last week I had to stay in for a few days because of the telephone wire.  It got to the stage I didn't want to go out.   

[craig84]

didn't realise I didn't reply

yeah I know what you mean pip then it will be against the owner not the dog, good thinking!!!
small dogs suffer from short man syndrome I swear they do, the smaller they are the more volatile with other dogs, I suspect it may be because they are so small they can sit on the owner and be carried a lot hence the dog see's anything as a threat which I reckon, is why the smaller dogs are so volatile. fingers crossed you are moving sooner rather than later and shouldn't have to worry so much...

lol cheese snob PP :p I like cheddar, and ummm I don't even know what its called but I don't like the really pungent blue and green stuff... that's off to me but I have been to a few wine bars and had a cheese platter :) had no idea what cheeses they were but it didn't matter in the end, the wine won lol
im not sure about me being fit, I walk a lot but have exercise induced asthma so cant really run around, that with my joint problems doesn't leave a lot of room for exercise. I don't even have a inhaler anymore but I don't run anymore really, just after the dog if I have to which is rare. id miss a bus rather than run for it. which Is why I always leave for things earlier than I have to so I don't have to rush around...

today has been pretty low and boring for me... kai seems to be okay and hasn't hopped or limped at all today so im pleased about that and continue to monitor him. He and shadow playfight which I think is what happened. kai has blunt teeth because his k9's are all chipped from when I worked for a demolition company there was no sticks so he's come running upto me with metal pipe or steel in his mouth, but the time I realised the damage was done, shadow however has sharp teeth but kai is the muscle.... its harmless playfighting when im here cos I clap and they stop when I think its getting too much, play fighting can switch to a real fight if your not careful. I wasn't here and no doubt josh was antagonising them to fight and my mums just useless tbh...


hows everyone else today?

[Pip]

Feeling tired and don't feel like doing much.  I am tired of not being taken seriously over trying to get DLA and people thinking I am much fitter than I am.  Let them live with my pain for a week and then let them tell me I don't need any help.  I can't even bother going back to the doctor about either as I'm on a cocktail of drugs now and any changes work for a short period of time then I'm back to square.  The only difference is now that I have changed one of my blood pressure tablets the 'Ramipril cough' as it is called is easing up now.     

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey Pip,
Sorry to hear how you are feeling this weekend, what has brought it on?  You seemed to be coping well, what with all the church functions you had on and your neighbour had stopped been a nuisance.  That is the problem people are too quick to just assume, when they don't know the full story instead of listening.  Sadly, ramipril is well linked with causing coughs a lot of people do say that is a common side effect. What have they switched you onto now, if you don't mind me asking?  By cocktail of drugs, is it for depression or for pain.  Was it back pain you suffer with?  Sorry to hear how you are feeling Pip hope things pick up soon
Big hugs
PP

[Pip]

Sorry I haven't responded as I have been feeling very low.  I've been put on Losartan (think that's the right spelling) which has helped.  It's the pain that is causing a problem for me lately and most of my medication is for that.  Yesterday I was absolutely crippled up and couldn't get comfortable at all.  I suffer with arthritis pain which is in both hands, right wrist, back, right hip and right ankle.

What I do around the church I do actually enjoy but I'm my worst enemy there as I don't know when to say no.  I've been told to slow up regularly so I know the others care and they will insist I go home or get on with jobs before I do.

Today I do feel better.  We got so fed up with all the neighbour problems that I got us on the Homeswapper site.  Anyway last week I got an email from our HA stating that they're not going to be part of the scheme.  This means that the HA tenants can be on it but will have to pay the fee to be on it.  Instead the HA is just going to concentrate on Homeswap which is equivilant to Homeswapper and fas been incorporated into Durham Key Options.  That's how we got the bungalow we're in now.  Anybody can apply to Durham Key Options regardless of whether they are council and HA tenants or not.  People will get points in reference to age, medical problems, married / single / in a partnership etc the same as council and HA waiting lists.  The bonus is that people can put bids on properties they are interested in and whoever is at the top of the list gets first refusal.  Now people can do a mutual exchange through the scheme as well.

I applied for us to get onto Durham Key Options about 12 days ago and last week we got a letter through letting us know we had been accepted.  I put in four bids all on bungalows with the closing date of the 10th September for bids.  One is a mutual exchange so it was up to the other tenant to get in touch with us.  One is void which means it's not ready yet so if we wanted that one we would have to wait until the work is done.  That left two and yesterday we got an email and telephone call but were out.  Rick rang the HA when we got home and HA officer asked if we were still interested.  We are so we went to see both bungalows.  Both are nice so it we had to weigh up the pros and cons.  One had a higher fence round the back garden but the other had a fence round the front garden, it has a shower as well as a bath and the kitchen is a bit bigger.  There are new kitchens and bathrooms in both bungalows which is good.  The one we chose we will be signing the contract on Monday with the tenancy starting the following Monday.  However on Tuesday we are going to pay the first week's water rates so we can pick the keys up and get moved in.

That in itself has cheered me up as it gets us away from the neighbour.