Hello all :)
Hope this is the right place to post this, but i have an issue and wanted some opinions.
Right some history on me- i 1st suffered from depression when i was 16 brought on by the sudden and unexpected death of my father who i was living with at the time. At 1st my family and the docs put my mood down to the shock and bereavement i had suffered, but as my mood got lower it became obvious that i was actually suffering from depression. I was put onto anti depressants and over time i recovered and with the docs help come of the medication.
Fast foward till im 21. I again begin to find it hard to cope - crying all the time, wanting to stay in bed etc etc. My grandmother is diagnosed with Altzeimers and as she is living with us, this obviously puts a huge strain on me and mum. I desperately try and pull myself out of the black mood until one day something bad happens to me whilst i am out walking my dog.
At 1st everyone thinks i am coping well, then i walk out of my job (which i had loved) and pretty much have a complete breakdown. This event was what triggered my OCD and PTSD. Soon i will not leave the house alone and am self harming too.
I am refered to a phychirirst (sp) and have CBT, i am also tried on several types of medication, none of which suit me (including the same ones i had taken previously.) Then i am prescribed Moclobemide (an MAOI) which over time has made me feel tons better (although some of the OCD traits are still there.)
The moclobemide has been a pain to take at times because of the various interactions it can have, but generally has suited me very well.
My partner and me are now talking about starting a family and i spoke to the doc and he said that i will need to stay on the anti deppressants for life now, but will need to swap to another kind a few months before trying to become pregnant. This thought terrifies me, as it toook so long to begin to recover and to find a drug which didnt make me feel worse or have horrible side effects. Am i over reacting or has anyone else felt the same about having their medication changed etc.
Sorry this post has become so long!
