hi i was bullied in highschool and because of that it affected my confidence and self esteem i still have problems trying to forget the past and even now even when i am happy i am sad , i can sometimes go all day without feeling tired and others i cant its like a wave and i have no energy i sleep quite well but still have trouble getting to sleep and waking up i perfer to be on my own then with my friends i ve tried to talk to my friends but they just think its me being silly. i am irritable most of the time and my mood changes constanly i have writtten poems but lately i am finding that this is not helping. i do think about death alot like what would it feel like to drown , die in a car crash etc . theres like a brick wall that stops me from telling people whats wrong and asking for help although i have never actually tried to kill myself sometimes i do though hurt myself just to feel some sense of being alive and to let out the anger and other emotions that are pent up inside. its affecting me and i dont know what to do before its too late . &*(
