Firstly belated happy new year to everyone on this fantastic forum. I haven’t had a chance to go into the forum over the past few weeks busy over the Christmas period and ill health in the family if it hasn’t been the winter vomiting virus it’s been the flu. I caught the Flu last week and only just getting over the worst (No it hasn’t been man flu my wife will back me up on that!!).
Anyway been very run down and had time to think about depression and one of my goals for the new year is I want to dramatically cut down on my drinking, however I had a chilling though I have been drinking heavily on and off for the past 20 years or so, am I an alcoholic? Quite possibly, I have made the decision to turn my back on the booze once and for all. I though back to the lost opportunities I have had in my life and ruined them because of the booze, I really took a shine to a woman I worked with back in the early nineties Joanna and had to drink myself silly to ask her for a date I went out with her once and she basically told me although she liked me I’m not her type, this happened again with another woman called Nicky, ok all’s well that ends well I am married to a fantastic woman with three great kids.
As well as the lost romantic opportunities I have made financial cock ups lost £1000’s over the past few years for not thinking straight the list goes on I won’t bore you all with the details. I’m sure a big part of my depression has been due to drinking ok not all of it there are other things as well which have aggravated my depression. When I think about this whole situation in my life to be honest it has given me a shock and I have been feeling very down because of it but if I can keep to this promise I am sure life can only get better and I will be able to deal with the other issues in my life much more successfully.
