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Abztract

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Daily battle!
« on: August 25, 2010, 10:14:07 AM »
The darkness lifts and your eyes slowly flicker open and for a few seconds everything is fine! Not good, not bad but fine and then it hits you. Your heart starts to beat faster and there is a definate and distinct tightening in your chest whilst the anxiety and feeling of dread descends and consumes you. You search your mind to find a reason why you feel this way, why is today so scary and then you realise that the reason you feel this way is because you woke up again and that means you have to get through another day.

It took me a long time to realise that this was the cause of my constant morning nightmare.

What do you do when you don't want to be anywhere?
What do you do when you don't want to die but you are too tired to live?
What do you do when you hate being alone but feel suffocated when around people?
What do you do when you can't stand the feeling of guilt you have for feeling bitter and resentful towards your 'happy' friends?
What do you do when you can see yourself slowly fade away but can't do anything to stop it?


This is my life at the moment!

junior

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Re: Daily battle!
« Reply #1 on: August 25, 2010, 03:17:52 PM »
The darkness lifts and your eyes slowly flicker open and for a few seconds everything is fine! Not good, not bad but fine and then it hits you. Your heart starts to beat faster and there is a definate and distinct tightening in your chest whilst the anxiety and feeling of dread descends and consumes you. You search your mind to find a reason why you feel this way, why is today so scary and then you realise that the reason you feel this way is because you woke up again and that means you have to get through another day.

That is the exactly how im feeling and have felt for a long time, couldnt have wrote or said it better myself.
Junior