Hi Guys

[captainkeefy]

Just thought I'd pop back and say hi. I know I was only here briefly during my last bout of feeling down but I wanted to come back and say thanks for reading my posts and replying. I've now started CBT and I'm really enjoying doing it. Some of the things I've noticed is that I'm very avoiding of things and people and think I might be co-dependent although my Therapist has just let me talk so far and not really given me any feedback. He just sits there like   %$£ or   !£!. Anyway I hope you are all well and if anyone is feeling down this is for you *()

[mat]

We are always here for you , glad that you are enjoying your cbt  , has it made you look at things in a different light?.

[captainkeefy]

We are always here for you , glad that you are enjoying your cbt  , has it made you look at things in a different light?.

Hi mat,

To be honest coming here made me start seeing things in a different light. I noticed how open and honest people where of themselves and I started looking at myself in this light. I stopped feeling ashamed of myself and realized the things I was ashamed weren't really that big a deal. This made me really open and honest with myself and my Therapist. He hasn't really said much in return yet and he certainly not diagnosed anything but I don't mind because I'm not looking for a label but the thing I have noticed is I have started seeing things differently and started doing things a little different and my Therapist seems impressed that I worked these things out myself.

[mat]

It was the exact same for me, sure my life is not perfect and some days I feel like crap but I honestly don't know what I would of done if I never went to this CBT thing which I had never heard of before in my life.

You have just got to keep with it !...

"mental strength"

[Catbrian]

Good to hear the CBT is going well.  I felt exactly the same about my depression and used to keep it like a shameful secret, until I heard people on here.

My experience of therapists is that they never do say very much

[captainkeefy]

I really have committed myself to this CBT. My confidence and self esteem have really increased since I started I think I've found the problem and its really changed how I perceive things in my life. I don't want to get too excited because my therapist has told me to take it slowly and make sure I'm not getting ahead of myself incase I'm wrong. He said its real early on yet so I need to be taking things as they come.

[Catbrian]

I think the Therapist is right, but there's nothing to stop you riding the high you feel for the progress so far.  Probably the Therapist worries about what we are all affected by - disappointment.  So often, we feel on top of things when, all of a sudden, we can take an unexplained dip.

Good luck for continued success....

[captainkeefy]

Hi Guys,

I had a tough time after posting this last time. I emotionally pushed my Wife away, became quite depressed. Then fell madly in love with her again then pushed her away again and had a day of bad depression, but this time it was different because my mood was changing quite fast, well I was more aware of it anyway. My Therapist did say on 19th of December that the dynamics of my relationship where about to change before I pushed her away. In the middle of all this my Therapist cancelled an appointment so I didn't go for 5 weeks.

[Sweetpea]

Sorry you have been having such a rough time. Depression is awful and can put such a strain on our relationships.

S x x x x

[captainkeefy]

Hey, thanks for the kind words. I went the doctors and they put me on a mild anti depressant which I'm hoping helps. It seemed a bit strange with the doctor though as she was reading stuff off her screen from therapy "suffers low confidence, self esteem, sensitive to critism... I don't know what this means." I should of said something, she seemed really dismissive and critical and I didn't know what to say. Then when I was talking she seemed to change the subject a lot and every time I spoke she'd say "sorry, I didn't hear you." I just wanted her to listen. Oh well, at least I got some help.

[Catbrian]

What a cheek the GP had.  First of all, reading such sensitive notes really P's me off at the best of times but for her to then say "sorry I didn't hear you"... it didn't sound like she asked you to repeat it...cheeky mare!!

It's a pity that the Therapist cancelled at such a crucial time.  I hope to get to see her soon.  Is it the Therapist who is writing the notes the GP can see?

[Sweetpea]

That's so rude of the Dr. I would not be impressed. I hope the meds help. Maybe next time ask to see another Dr. You should feel at ease with your Dr.

S x x x x

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[captainkeefy]

I'm looking forward to get back in to see my therapist next week. It's good to have people who understand. She didn't even really listen

[Sweetpea]

That is so bad that she didn't even listen, does not give you much confidence to go back. Glad you have your therapist meeting again next week.

S x x x x

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[Catbrian]

And to think these GP are on mega money.... cheeky gits