Hello

[notwavingbutdrowning]

I guess i ought to do the formalities first.  I'm keen to stay anonymous, because i'm really concerned someone i know will realise it's me (paranoia or what but you never know), and i just want to use this forum to off-load, get some perspective from others, and basically to just feel normal without pretending i'm ok when i'm absolutely not.  Sorry if people are uncomfortable with that, esp anyone who is worried about trolls, but i can't find it in myself to go public whilst my life is such a mess really. I'm in my 30s, a single mum and have been since the beginning practically, and my life is still, after years of going nowhere, in &$%+sville.  I hope to gain some support from using this site.  Thanks for reading.

[Ezel]

 ^&* and I believe you're genuine  *()