Hello people, my name is john

[drjohn339]

Hi everyone I am a 56 year old grandad of 5 which is both good and bad. I feel guilty for not seeing 2 of my grandkids much due to depression but I do see the others that live nearer and I really love them.

Kids don't have the emotional baggage and they don't see that you are struggling inside. They just want to play.

I'm isolating at home so much that I can't stand it anymore so I'm going to see about some volunteer work tomorrow, but I am really anxious about doing it.

I'm in a bad spell of depression right now due to having my incapacity benefit stopped under the new draconian welfare reform measures.

I have worked most of my life but I used to do a lot of drink and drugs in order to cope and, now that I'm clean, I feel anxious and fearful of the future.

Thanks for reading,

john

[Rosie]

Hi John
I am new to forums and joined this one for much the same reasons as yourself.
I suffer from depression and have a chronic illness, FMS too.
It is very difficult when you are feeling isolated.
I am pleased for you that you see your grandchildren, it is important that you keep up the contact.
I know it is difficult when you feel so low.
It is a good idea to go and try some voluntary work. I felt very nervous too but i am coping quite well with it.
Each time i go i feel apprehensive but afterwards i feel like i have achieved something.
Hope it goes well for you.
Take care
Ashleigh