im really struggling now

[lightenup]

Come on Junior...............just think of how they talk exitedly about going to see daddy...........keep up the good times with them. 

[junior]

Im trying lightenup I really am, just got back from playing football with my oldest boy

[bel]

hi Junior,

I know it must be really tough for you and I hear your pain, but it does sound like you're handling it better. It's bound to hurt because you are a sensitive and caring person, just do your best to carry on and enjoy the time with your boys. Being so young they may not show it, but it will mean a lot to them as well.

bel

[junior]

Thank you bel, im trying and thats more than I was doing last month, so its a good start, I even feel a small amount of happiness somedays, today is hard as its sunday and my boys will be going home soon.
Junior

[bel]

Try to remember and focus on those little bits of happiness, it will help them to grow.

Hope you're ok today.

bel

[junior]

Thank you bel,
I didnt sleep too well last night, but no bad dreams which is good, im feeling ok so far, not good but not bad either.
Junior

[lightenup]

Hi Junior good luck with the flat, glad your having a good day so far reading from your journal.  See how much the kids love you, you are such a strong person.  Just for the info when I had the 2 attempts of od my therapist has told me to put my sons faces in the front of my mind, and it sure helps when I am down.  take care

[junior]

Thank you lightenup, somethings going right for me, I got the flat, im feeling a little mixed about it but I know its a good start, I still haven't found a job yet, hope one comes up soon.
Junior