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[libellule]

Hi...am new here!
Just needed somewhere to write some stuff down about how I am feeling...sorry if its all been said before.  Am feeling really low at the moment and have no reason to.  This actually makes thngs feel worse as there are so many people around the world with real problems who are just getting on with it.  I feel inadequate in my job and in the home too as I seem unable to manage my time even tho I am only working part time.  I am coming off my meds slowly but am not sure if its a psychological thing that I am feeling.  I feel normal when I am not at work (am a teaching assistant) but giving up work not an option and with 2 kids, trying to find something else would be difficult.  I no longer sleep on a Sunday as I know I have to go to work on a Monday.  My OH is good, but doesn't really understand and I see it in his eyes that he thinks I make a drama out of nothing.
Thanks for giving me somewhere I could write all this down.
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[Sweetpea]

Hello and welcome :). S x x x x

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[Zaf]

Hi and welcome  *() 

I think many of us have similar feelings so you arent alone

Z xxx

[libellule]

Thank you, that's good to know xx

[Pip]

 Hi +-_ you will be made to feel very welcome and don't worry about sharing anything others have shared as it does help to know that somebody understands

[Catbrian]

Welcome to the Forum.  Hope you find it helpful and supportive

[Michael Frankum]

Hello and welcome.  +-_

[libellule]

Thank you for the kind welcome....I have spent the day in bed as I had a minor meltdown at work yesterday....quite a public one and I am embarrassed.  Am back to the docs tomorrow and I am hoping he'll up my meds again...I don't think I cope well with working life on a lower dose.  Is it bad to be unable to function properly without meds?  I feel really pathetic at the moment, and very fragile and I am scared to go back to work in case I lose it again.  I know staying in bed is not the answer....I just needed it today. X

[Sweetpea]

%^% for you. No its certainly not wrong to need medication. Depression is an illness, others take medication for other illnesses. I have been told I will probably need to be on anti-depressants for life. So sorry you were bad at work yesterday. Maybe you need to take some time off and give yourself a break. I hope your Dr can help tomorrow. Take care. S x x x x

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[Zaf]

Shaz is right xxxx

[libellule]

Am taking the day off again tomorrow and am feeling a little more positive this evening.  Am so glad I came across this site as I don't feel so isolated now x

[Sweetpea]

That's good to hear. You need to rest. This forum is lovely I for one am very glad I found it. S x x x x

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[Catbrian]

It must be so difficult to feel so low yet hold it together for your own children and also also at work.  I imagine that's a tough environment when you're not 100%

It's good you've got the Doc's tomor, maybe increasing your meds will help in the long run.  Trouble is, they do take time to take effect.  I don't suppose you could have a week or two off sick?  Sounds like it's what you need right now.

Hope you have a good nights rest