Is it just me?

[CatAndMouse]

i dont know if this is something anyone else has experienced? i just want to know whether the depression is causing this or im just being stupid or something.

Most evenings, when my depression seems to get more intense, i end up having these little breakdowns or something. when everything feels like its smothering me, like theres a weight on me. i end up curling into a ball, not being able to do anything, feeling like my mind is closing in on itself like a jail and not being able to think straight, i cant cope with it. its like i want to cry and let it out but because i seem to have the inabiltiy to react or show or feel emotion, i cant. has anyone else had this or am i just especially weak to normal depession? 

[Michael Frankum]

I haven't experienced this myself, but you certainly aren't being stupid. I put my headphones on and play really loud music to numb myself to any thought. I suppose that in a way, this is the opposite of your problem, in as much as I want to stop thinking, and you seem to want to focus your thinking, but I believe that both are very valid reactions to the feelings we have. You are not weak or stupid. You are suffering with a problem. It's real.
Best wishes.  *() Take care.

[Buttercup]

Hi

I get moments like that, just a complete and utter inability to cope with just being. Everything shuts down, it's a bit like a panic attack in some ways.

Xxx

[CatAndMouse]

thank you for your replies :)

thanks, sometimes im just scared that all this is just a play on in my own mind and im just being dramatic, but i guess then i get low and i realise that im too weak to handle whatever this is :/

im glad someone has experienced something similar. i also seem to get worse in the evenings...does anyone else get this?

btw im very sorry ive not been offering many people advice or posting on their topics, its very selfish of me and i apologise. i really dont deserve all your amazing support, but i do thank you

[Ezel]

You're not selfish and please keep posting.  You are helping in your own way by having the courage to post as someone could be feeling the same way at the same time  %^%

[Michael Frankum]

 +-_ Hi, it's me again. As Pip said, you are definitely helping others by posting, and I hope that you will continue to let us know how things are going for you.

I certainly remember that when I was sleeping properly, the evenings, especially the dark winter evenings, were a real trial. I'm not actually feeling worse in the evening now, but this is mainly because my sleeping patterns are so poor that I often don't surface until the middle of the afternoon.

Take care.

[Tony The Tiger]

I personally don't have that but I do have 'spaced out' moments where I just lose focus on everything like I've just stepped out of myself or something.  Not sure I explained it very well but I just stop what I'm doing, even lose focus with my eyes and pause for a few seconds.  My mind wanders and I guess I've escaped from myself for a bit.

[Pablo]

I personally don't have that but I do have 'spaced out' moments where I just lose focus on everything like I've just stepped out of myself or something.  Not sure I explained it very well but I just stop what I'm doing, even lose focus with my eyes and pause for a few seconds.  My mind wanders and I guess I've escaped from myself for a bit.

I know the feelings you describe only too well

[CatAndMouse]

Thank you for your replies i dont feel as alone anymore :)

and Michael Frankum, i get that a lot too, when i feel like i zone out, or like im in a dream, and it totally confuses me, blanked :/

thank you again xx

[su]

Hi

I definitely get worse in the evenings - as the day goes on and I get more tired, I run out of steam and everything goes downhill.

I get less rational, more paranoid, less able to cope with anything.

Just less resources left to hold it together.

Not just you at all.