Hello

[justme]

Hello everyone, I've never joined a depression website before
And thought I would give it a go!
I've suffered with depression on and off for the last 20 years, started after the birth of my first child in 1985.

Over the past few years I've also had anxiety and panic attacks to go along with the depression. I take medication daily and work full time, which does help to keep me focused.

My bouts are not always caused by outside influences and I find that very hard to deal with.
I've had CBT and seen more councilors than I care to mention!!
Wish I could say they've helped but honestly they haven't.

I've attempted suicide once and felt shame and guilt at what I had done!

I'm having a very low bout right at the moment and there are outside circumstances that are making it worse!! And trying to explain to people who have no idea what it's like to suffer from depression is both exhausting and a waste of time as it just goes in one ear and out the other and I'm just sick to death of trying to make myself understood!!

Anyway hello to everyone and it'll be nice to talk to people who uderstand how I feel. :0) x

[PaulaJo]

Hi Justme,

Welcome to the forum! I have found this forum to be full of helpful, caring, kind souls who give so much support, even when they are feeling down and struggling.
It is great to be able to 'talk' to others who have 'been there, done that'.

Hang in there during this low phase. There are people here who care and who will listen.

 *()

[justme]

 Thanks PaulaJo, it'll be nice to know that I can talk to others who understand, it means a lot.

Also be nice to possibly give advice that might help others.

Xx

[Ezel]

Hi and welcome  +-_

[Sweetpea]

Hello :) and welcome to the forum. S x x x x

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome  *()

Z xxx

[Catbrian]

Hi and a welcome from me too  +-_

I completely understand outside frustrations having a detrimental effect on our own mental state.  And, as for those who can't understand... well, they should count themselves lucky not to suffer the dark hours we have.  It's difficult and at times extremely lonely, but I hope you find the Forum as helpful as I have.

[Buttercup]

Hi and welcome xxx

[justme]

 $%$ Hi and thanks to everyone for the warm and friendly welcome. I'm sure others have the same problem as I do, which is to agree to meet up with friends or family and then when it comes to it make excuses not to go as you just can't face actually seeing or talking to anyone!! When I'm not at work all I want to do is sleep!! Don't get out of my Pj's and if I don't have to talk to anyone I won't!!

My friends know the signs of me starting to self isolate and leave me alone but keep an eye from a distance. If I could run away I would but I have responsibilities and just can't do it!! I also then feel so guilty for wanting to run away and also for being a worry to my family and friends.

So off to have a sleep now. X x

[Catbrian]

That brought back memories; times I dreaded going out, turning my phone off and hiding indoors instead.  It's a waking nightmare
Sleep's a good healer.... I did loads... 14-15 plus per day was my record...I'm actually going back that way myself, come to think of it.  I need to get myself back in a routine.

Good luck with yours

[Got]

Hello,

I have never met a talking dog before.

I am sorry to hear about your depression but I do know how you feel, its really tough.

Steve

[KateG]

Hi and welcome. I can identify with the pj depression uniform

Glad you found us

Kate x