Im out of of touch with my emotions. I am disenfranchised, I have power over nothing. My choices dont matter even I wanted to make a choice.
Nothing matters to me I cannot connect with people I dont see the need to.
I dont understand emotions it was unwise to act on impulsive emotions it is by definition irrationally. Chosening to act on certain emotions over others is also hypocritical for how can one say to act on love but not hate, kindness but not anger.
How does one value emotions and why would you when they have no value?
If it is the right thing you are after then logic and reason is enough to go by this is very different than saying I chose love over hate because love produces the best outcome. No! What produces the best outcome was how you acted on certain avaialbe information. i.e you weighed the effort and risk of something and decieded that the rewarded for doing so was worth it.
People with high emotions are in denial how about how good having them are. They unwilling dont use the best part of their skills, which is to be critical thinkers.
It is akin to pigs rolling in muck sure the pig loves to roll in muck but I will take no part in it.
I never agreed to any of the rules which I was born into and I dont see how this fair to place the burden on me to follow such rules when I have no say in anything, but merely a sheep that I do what I am told or I face consquence the full rath of society. It is this expecation that makes me feel depressed.
It is like me buying you a ferrari, that costs £250k I knock on your door and say here you go I got you a car, even when you already own a car yourself. You think this is a good idea, but then I turn to and say I have set up the payments to come out of your bank account, first payment is next week its going to 5k plus interest now please enjoy the red sports car, and its legally binding you have to do this or they take everthing.
The problem is that most people think that there is only one way to live, the right way, socieities way for it is so big how could it be wrong, EVERYONE does it. Again this assumption is wrong there are many many ways to live, and as far as the right way the only way well it does not exist.
Picture if you can the Nazis winning the war, they force their version of right and wrong on the wolrd, and you are born into this world, you know no other way but whatever the Nazis say is right for you and wrong for. You go along with it, for what choice do you have EVERYONE else does it, you believe it to be true because you have never questioned them. So my question is how can you tell the difference between that world and the world you live in now?
You see society is also evil it may be a lesser evil but it is evil none the less, and the problem is you have no other choice but to follow but to be a sheep you have no voice, you do not matter, you are unhappy about paying taxes too bad you have to pay. Sure you can vote for this person or that, but you yourself or unable to change, it all you can do is hope that the guy you vote for is not evil and will not make you pay too high a tax, well good luck with that.
Im not important in the overall scheme of things. Buying things I do not want or need, for what happens when you want nothing. For what happens when your efforts are meaningless and everything has no value.
So I must go to work, thats great. So I must pay bills and taxes, fantastic please tell me more about this great life I have to lead, what else do you want me to do? Clean toilets? sure why not, if society force me to do so then how can I refuse? through peer pressure and brainwashing and coerced I do it for like living under the Nazis I know no other way but to do whatever it is society tell me to do. And the greatest trick it pulls is that it makes me believe that I want to do these things.
Welcome to the greatest show on earth.
