Hello Everyone. Im looking for your thoughts on my experiences if thats ok ? Really what i need to know is if it sounds like other peoples experience of depression.
For me this all started in march 08 with when i started to get stomarch pains that seemed to move around .
I did the thing of going to see my gp who did the usual thing of having a feel round and instantly diagnosing IBS. I was prescribed an anti-spasmodic drug to ease the pain. Any way i muddled on with the prescription not doing a thing, for another 12 months with my energy levels starting to become noticably lower,when in june 09 i started to get what looks like acne on my forehead which after 3 years is still there
. I muddled on not knowing what was happening just trying to keep my head above water with episodes of uncontrolable crying and an inability to concentrate. It was may 2010 when my world turn to hell when i completely collapsed. I had been struggling to get out of bed for a few weeks but there was one morning when i could not move, my mind and body seemed to have given up. My parents came to look after me and my gp was called who said it was depression and put me on 20mg Citalopram. I can honestly say that the next 6 months where a living nightmare of sitting in the house with family looking after me day and night, Panic attacks that were the most frightning thing i have ever experienced. Anyway as time went on things slowly improved to the point where i could return to work a few days a week ( working for family made things easier). After 18 months i slowly came off the citalopram with the usual withdrawal effects and everything was fine for a about a month. Then WHAM , i crashed , panic attacks ,crying , headaches like never before and just generally feeling ill as well as no energy what so ever. I did try to get better without medication for 2 months ( Big mistake) but was getting nowhere so back to citalopram which i have been on for a month. The thing that worries me is how little physical activity i can do before i feel sick and dizzy. I know what got me here (18 months of extreme stress and physical excertion) but what i dont know is what ive got ie; Depression, cfs ,ibs, etc.
I just thought i would put it out there as im at a loss with it all and its been going on for 4 years now !
Your thought would be appreciated.
Many thanks
Steve
