Hi, I'm new on here, and not sure what to say.
I have severe depression and anxiety, for which i have medication...which has helped alot.
I still can't face the public on my own, without shaking and wanting to run! lol
My 8 year old daughter has been with her dad the last 2 weeks, and i think I left the house once to go to the local shop.
It completely drained me for the day...couldn't get home quick enough!!
My friends and family live an expensive bus trip(fear of the bus makes it even more impossible) away, so no one comes to see me
or i them....I could have been lying dead for days and no one woulld have noticed.
The medication has helped me feel better, I'm at least getting up and dressed on a daily basis.
Oddly I just feel numb now, I did try taking an overdose of otc sleeping tablets at the weekend...but felt guilty about my daughter straight away.
I know if she wasn't aroound, i wouldn't be either...is it horrid of me to keep praying her dad and his wife(with new baby) that they would try
to get custody of my daughter...so she can have a happy life without me?
If it wasnt for her i'd be gone...dont know what to do anymore