Hi there my name is Andy and im almost 38 years old.
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I've suffered with depression and anxiety most of my adult life but have only been treated
since about 2001. ( 15mg mirtazapine daily )
as a child i grew up suffering in silence with a condition called body dysmorphic disorder.
for those that arnt familular it's a condition where the sufferer has an issue with their appearance, in my case
i was fixated with the belief that i had lizard type skin and as you can imagine this distressed me a great deal.
i would do strange things like try and keep my face out of the sunlight as much as possible and i would take a shower
in the dark because i beleived it would wash away the ugliness. this lead me to not grow up mentaly and leads
me to where i am today.
I decided to join the forums because im (like a lot of people) at one of my lowest points in my life.
my Big problem at the moment is my work situation.
im a security guard working in a business centre at weekends.
i only work saturdays and sundays 7am to 7pm ( 12 hours shifts ).
but i spend most of the week dreading the weekend arriving.
The problem is i have to sit at a desk watching a CCTV screen where nothing happens.
being on my own for such long periods i get bored which exacerbates my depression.
we arnt allowed to take a laptop in and watch tv etc _-+
I will make a post in the appropriate forum asking advice on leaving my job.
thanks for reading and i hope to get to know you all