I'm going to chat with someone tonight....

[sad sack]

... so I made an appointment a few weeks ago... and, well still haven't cancelled it, so I guess I'll go along as see how it goes...

it's just a one off (at the moment) with a psychologist to talk about present concerns, goals for therapy and to see what may be the best course of action for me...

As I said...we'll see what happens...

 

[Zaf]

Hope it goes well

Z x

[Sweetpea]

I too hope it goes well for you. S x x x x

[sad sack]

thanks...

I'm trying hard not to write it off already......

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[KateG]

Hope it goes (or went) ok x

[sad sack]

so I went...

I talked...

I listened...

I thought...

there was some things said that I hadn't thought about...

I feel better... I honestly do.... I'm not cured in any way, but I'll be going back..... but as someone better than me once said:

Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.

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[KateG]

Glad it made you feel better and it's good you're going to keep going  %^%

[Sweetpea]

So pleased that you are going to keep going. S x x x x

[mamalou]

Well done you ! Glad it went well. Glad you didn't cancel !

x

[Zaf]

Thats great to hear  _)_

Z xx

[sad sack]

I have decided to post an account of where this goes, just in case it may help others, as well as me......

1st meeting:

Unsurprisingly... he confirmed that I have major OCD... lol, more surprisingly though (to me)... he said I'm not suffering from any major "clinical" depression, although I do certainly have traces of it, and Anhedonia..So, what is wrong with me then... well according to him 2 things:

burnout and boreout, both pretty serious in their own right! lol

and it gets worse.... there are 12 documented stages of burnout... I'm at stage 11..Stage 12 is total  physically and emotional collapse, and in some cases, suicide...

No questionaires or other "tests" or anything... just asked me different questions and let me ramble on for a while trying to answer... lol


so there we go... could have all been BS... but I felt a bit better last night.

 
What have I taken away, thought about, and done:

I got home, deleted every last phone number, email, picture etc from ALL exes, EVERYTHING.

Got up at 6am today, and wanted to go to the gym.. so I did... $%$

I think I'll have another talk with him and go from there...We are going for 1 per week at the moment... just to get things started...

There were some pretty interesting things that he talked to me about, and pretty logical how I have ended up here TBH...

I need to stop living in the past.... need to change who I am... and the exes won't help, either thinking about them, or texting them...

My plan at the moment is, apart from seeing him and seeing how that goes... at least until the end of this year, I want to concentrate on getting fitter and healthier again...

Not planning on cutting out drink 100%... but going to calm it right down - but still need time and beer with my mate!!! :-D... lots of exercise and back to healthy eating...

and no women... of any kind... I'm done....... maybe next year, or when I'm feeling better, I'll probably redo my profile on Match.com, and take it from there...(I've been on there before and met some nutters, but also some really nice ladies... I met me ex on there for example)

So that is the deal at the moment.

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[Zaf]

That sounds pretty positivev _)_   $%$

[mamalou]

Wow ! Well done.

[Sweetpea]

That sounds so positive. Well done. S x x x x

[Ezel]

Great news &(* &(* &(* &(*