no appetite

[CharleysAngel']

I don't have much of an appetite, I don't really want to eat anything. I really want to lose weight too. I feel like this most days, everything I eat feels forced but I have to because I don't want my parents to think I'm not eating.

Then some days I will eat anything I find, I will literally stuff my face all day so I'm still a fat cow. I can't do much exercise because of my tiredness. I thought I perhaps had anorexia but now I'm not so sure. Life is a vicious circle

[Zaf]

It seems to me that its some sort of eating disorder IceLolly and you really need to tell your GP as soon as you can xxx

[CatAndMouse]

Bingeing is also a sign of eating disorders, and you can have more than one at a time. if it concerns you, you might want to speak to an authoritive figure (counsellor, gp etc) to make sure. And no you definately not a 'fat cow', you are beautiful. take care :)

[Sweetpea]

You really must try and talk to your Dr about this. S x x x x

[mamalou]

When I was about 15 years old, I starved myself.  Subtly going without food for weeks and weeks. It was really compilcated. I so desperately wanted to fade away. My very first suicide attempt. Noone knew and noone found out for ages - thus proving to me that I wasn't worth worrying about and certainly not worth saving. It is only now that in the depths and horrors of depression that I have been able to identify with it. I hated myself. Not eating meant I was in control of something when everything else was so wildly out of control.

I feel for you. Eating and self worth are very easily intertwined. Please try to talk to someone about how you feel and the way food / eating  figures in your depression.

Take care of yourself as much as you can. You aren't a fat cow - you are a beautiful young woman that just needs some support and understanding.

Lots of love x x x x x x x x

[CharleysAngel']

Thank you for your kind words everyone xx

I'm feeling so emotionally unstable at the moment I think these things are just going to slip out to my GP anyway

[Sweetpea]

%^% for you. It will be better if you can tell her. S x x x x

[Zaf]

You really do need to say something to your GP IceLolly  %^%  xx

[CharleysAngel']

I will try to tell her, I have written this all down in my letter xx

[Zaf]

Well done IceLolly, you're being really brave xxx