Hello , new and anxious

[Jenjam]

Hello all I'm Jen and I think it's time to admit I suffer depression.

I think I've had it for years, I always used to feel sad as a kid which made my parents angry.
I'm 41 now and I just get so fed up with feeling down, but I can't carry on with the smiling mask anymore, it's just too draining. I am scared and anxious but I hope there is relief out there somewhere.

I've decided to bite the bullet and go see a gp. I have recently moved so registered yesterday, hope to make that appointment next week. I'm scared they won't be sympathetic, so I came here for the extra support, thank you to the admin for accepting me so quick.

I hope I can contribute too, although too much Internet makes me a bit down.

Well that's me, hellO all and nice to meet you, I've been reading posts and you all seem lovely.

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome  *()  I hope your doctor's appointment goes well

Z xx

[Ezel]

 +_+ and $£$

[Sweetpea]

Hello and welcome to the forum. Try and be as honest as you can with your Dr. You are not alone many people suffer with depression. We understand here and will help and advise where we can. S x x x x

[dragunov63]

Good luck and well done on admitting you need help, I found that the hardest bit.
GP's seem to have a better attitude to mental illness these days, at least in my experience.

Nige

[Jenjam]

Thank you all - I still intend to make that appointment, but on Saturday I tripped, and fell onto my face. I'm pretty bashed up. I had to go to A&E, they told me I'll be Ok but need to rest my brain a bit - pretty darned good advice I think! I'm self employed so have put myself on half days for this week and am having a lot of sleeps. I take it as a sign - life is telling me to slow down and take this depression seriously.

[Sweetpea]

So sorry you have been hurt when you fell. Hope you get an appointment ok. Take care. S x x x x

[Catbrian]

  +_+ Yer, Jenjam, your post from yesterday sounds very sensible.  Depression really does take it out of us.  It's always best to give yourself time to recuperate. 

I used to sleep 12-13hrs every night and then another 2 hrs in the afternoon  *&*  It felt like my brain had shut down.  At the time, I had a very unsympathetic GP, but that was 12yrs ago.  Since then, in my experience, GP's have become more approachable. 

I still use the same GP.  After voicing a very critical opinion of his treatment, now he can't do enough for me.  I don't think he was appreciating the full extent of my depression... so don't be afraid to fully explain how you feel and remember it is always your prerogative to shop around   $%$

I hope you manage to see your GP very soon.  Hopefully your experience is positive.

Wishing you the best...  +-_

Cat

[Zaf]

That sounds very sensible Jenjam, I hope your injuries heal up soon xx