I am losing my mind

[mamalou]

I am totally losing my mind. I am normally asleep by now. I haven't eaten. My mind is racing, I am shaking and I feel wild. I can't go on anymore like this. It's very scarey. Really really struggling. Feel poorly.

Sorry.

[Sweetpea]

Please don't be sorry Mamalou. Just wish I could make things right for you. Thinking of you  %^%.

S x x x x

[Beetzart]

Thinking of you Mamalou  *()

Beet

[woozywoo]

Hey! Not in a good place myself,but felt I needed 2 post. I know I find it comforting knowing there is someone else there!

Have you managed 2 eat,maybe a small snack would help you settle a little,maybe enough so you could try 2 sleep!

Try 2 look after yourself hun,we are here for you x x x

[Amanda]

Hey, awake too! U aren't alone! Sleep is over rated anyway!

[tracey01]

Hiya, I'm the same have to be up at 6 too! Big hugs x %^%

[KateG]

Thinking of you  %^%

[Zaf]

How are you now mamalou? xxx

[CharleysAngel']

Hugs Mamalou, really feel for you xxx

[mamalou]

Decided I might stop therapy.  *^* Am feeling vulnerable and don't like the policy of information sharing in my care team. I am utterly devastated as I think it's the one thing that may keep my alive. Really scared now. Got a bigger prescription than normal - really tempting to down the lot.

[CaptainMustard]

Hi, mamalou. I know we haven't 'met' yet, but I'm here offering you a big  %^%.

I hope you are doing okay - that you have managed to fall asleep.

If you still feel terrible when you wake up, I'd suggest locking the pills away and giving the key to a friend or family member until you next need a dose. It's what I do if I get really bad.

Hope to 'see' you soon!  *()

[Zaf]

Stopping therapy doesnt sound a good idea, can you talk to your care team about your fears?

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Mamalou I so feel for you. These feelings are truely awful. S x x x x

[CharleysAngel']

I don't think its a good idea to stop therapy mamalou. I understand why you sometimes feel you want to though, I don't tell my counsellor a lot of stuff in fear that it could possibly be passed on. Hugs for you xx

[mamalou]

Thank you for your replies. I do so appreciate the time it takes and the emotion to share. Thank you, thank you.

I was so pro therapy, but I begged my therapist not to share information yesterday. I feel she has misinterpretted what I said, but she says it is because of my growing up years experiences, that I do not have balanced view. I cried and cried and begged her to keep the information to herself, but she said that I am vulnerable and she is concerned. AAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggg I am in absolute agony and complete distress. I cannot go on with this life anymore. I just don't have the resources to keep myself "safe" in a mental way.

My body hurts and my head aches and I am just plain frightened. I want out now.