Hi Tracey. I read your post before I posted mine as I felt you were going through the same feelings as me.
We had another argue and I think I pushed over the edge this time. I continued to ask what happened for her to be like this and she said she doesn't know. She thought that having a new relationship ( when she started with me over 9 months ago) she would have her problems sorted out. it happens she feels that it actually made her problems worse and she feels she is better on her own. She says that my idea of a break would mean the end and wouldnt solve our relationship... She was the one who suggested the break to start with!!!!
I carried I asking if she didn't feel the sand about me, why wasn't she more straight forward and told me face to face, instead of denying me of everything that makes up for a relationship and leaving me wondering what happened and that something wrong with me? She said, she still doesn't know what it is (her condition, medication, changing of feelings, etc) but if I wanted an answer, she would say its over between us.
From the stories she told me about her last long term relationship, she did the same thing... Dragged on for several years with it until her ex put her over the edge and she finally ended it.
So, I guess that her problems are HUGE and she can't cope with relationships...
She is seeing a counsellor next week, when we will be on a indefinite break, and let's see if she will start to miss me or not... I really love her, but I'm afraid I'm not tailored to have a relationship with someone with a mental illness like depression. I feel really sorry for them, but I don't want to end up like my father... He died 3 months ago from Alzheimer's and his wife had depression and OCD... I witnessed the horrors of her moods and how he coped with it. I used to stay with them in the summer when i was a child and it affected me to the point I cant deal with people with mood swings...
I'm not being Heartless or anything... I dealt with it in the past the hard way and don't want to end up like my self... Unhappy and with no life...
I welcome all your comments