emotional and medical limbo.

[Owl]

I had an appointment with my regular GP today after a pretty weird weekend and the upset of having found out that I will have to register with a new GP closer to home - resulting in a new psychiatric team etc etc.

Anyway, I had my appointment and got really upset, out of sheer frustration I think. She said my task for the next day or so was to register with the new surgery, which I have done today, to my annoyance. She said that she was going to see me until all my notes are fully transferred and she has had a chance to talk to my new doctor about everything. She said that they would make the transition as slow and easy as possible, which is lovely. But I can't help feeling that it is still starting from scratch with another team and that thought terrifies me.

I will also have to start with a new CPN and as I have only started to feel I can be completely honest with the one I have I can't see that this is going to be beneficial.

With regards to my medication, I have been told to stop it. It hasn't hellp me any, and if anything I feel emotionally worse and much more confused about the world than I did before starting it. However, it was an MAOI which means I have to wait at least 2 weeks before starting another medication trial. I don't really know what to expect in
 the next two weeks but I have a feeling it may be difficult.

So I feel like I'm in limbo, both emotionally and medically and there isn't anything I can do about it. I feel like I'm completely at the end of my tether and I don't want to do it anymore. I feel like I've tried everything I can and nothing has worked - my thought processes have just gotten stranger and I can feel the life I want and had planned for myself slipping away from me

I hope this post finds you all well and that you have had a far less frustrating and emotional day than me

Fox

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[Buttercup]

What a day you've had, well done for just getting through it  %^% %^%

It's all very frustrating for you but hopefully it will be a smooth transition into the new GP practice.  I understand how you feel with the meds, I'm in limbo as well at the moment.

[CharleysAngel']

Hi Fox,

I'm sorry you have had such a bad day. Its really not fair that you have to switch GP and mental health teams when you are feeling so bad

I sort of know how you feel, all that waiting to start different treatments in the hope that you might find something that works. I seem to be constantly waiting for a diagnosis and treatment for whatever is wrong with me ( they don't actually know yet) so I know how frustrating that feel

I hope that things start to improve for you, you find treatment that works and you get along well with your new GP/ health team xxx

[Owl]

Thanks for the hugs Buttercup.

I know, the medication things is so frustrating isn't it? They either don't work or send me a bit loopy and make me do things which are most out of character (ie spending all my money etc etc). This will be my 7th medication trial and I think I've just become a bit disallusioned with it all! I really hope that yours gets sorted out soon because it is such a long process!!

Ice Lolly, I tried to reply to your post regarding not wanting your parents to know but deleted it all by mistake. Even if you don't get a solid diagnosis but some help with everything, it's better than nothing! With regards to not wanting your parents to know, I started with depression etc in my mid teens and wish so much now that I had bitten the bullet and talked to my family about it and gotten help then. Though of course, you have to do what's best for you!

Blah, I think I just need a good cry and to stop rambling.

Fox.
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[Buttercup]

Have a good cry, sometimes it makes me feel better. %^%

My meds were working really well but I seem to have developed a very itchy allergy to them   

I'll join you with the good cry

[Sweetpea]

Hi fox, I am sorry you have had such a bad day, but good on you for doing it.  Hopefully the new mental health team and the Dr will be able to sort your meds and get you back on track. %^% for you x x

[Zaf]

Feeling a wee bit useless today but thinking of you fox xx

[KateG]

It's true that a good cry helps sometimes, I had a huge one yesterday, hope yours helped Fox  %^%  xx

[Owl]

Thanks everyone. The cry was a case of once I started I couldn't stop so my eyes are red raw now! I just think that everything has hit me.

Zaf - I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling useless! I hope you're okay, let me know if I can help with anything. Don't you worry about me!

Buttercup - it's so strange how you can develop an allergy to something over time. It sounds most unpleasant. I hope you're alright??

Fox

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[Owl]

Can't do this anymore. Its torturous. Feel like everything is just too hard. Life shouldn't be like this should it?

[mamalou]

No it shouldn't be like this. x

[Sweetpea]

No it isn't fair.  But we have to fight it if we can %^%. S x x x x

[Buttercup]

Keep fighting Fox xxx

[woozywoo]

It is unfair and no it shouldnt be like this Fox, Keep fighting x

[whiteadder]

Hope tomorrow is better for you Fox :)