I had an appointment with my regular GP today after a pretty weird weekend and the upset of having found out that I will have to register with a new GP closer to home - resulting in a new psychiatric team etc etc.
Anyway, I had my appointment and got really upset, out of sheer frustration I think. She said my task for the next day or so was to register with the new surgery, which I have done today, to my annoyance. She said that she was going to see me until all my notes are fully transferred and she has had a chance to talk to my new doctor about everything. She said that they would make the transition as slow and easy as possible, which is lovely. But I can't help feeling that it is still starting from scratch with another team and that thought terrifies me.
I will also have to start with a new CPN and as I have only started to feel I can be completely honest with the one I have I can't see that this is going to be beneficial.
With regards to my medication, I have been told to stop it. It hasn't hellp me any, and if anything I feel emotionally worse and much more confused about the world than I did before starting it. However, it was an MAOI which means I have to wait at least 2 weeks before starting another medication trial. I don't really know what to expect in
the next two weeks but I have a feeling it may be difficult.
So I feel like I'm in limbo, both emotionally and medically and there isn't anything I can do about it. I feel like I'm completely at the end of my tether and I don't want to do it anymore. I feel like I've tried everything I can and nothing has worked - my thought processes have just gotten stranger and I can feel the life I want and had planned for myself slipping away from me
I hope this post finds you all well and that you have had a far less frustrating and emotional day than me
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