hello everyone
i mentioned in a post a while ago that i felt my meds were no longer helping the way they used to and from the responses recieved this seems to be fairly common so after some waiting this week i got my review which was with a locum clinical psychiatrist to discuss and evaluate me well i went to the appointment and the doctor didn't have any of my notes so then i had to try and condense the last twenty years of problems for him to which he said i'm sorry i really need to see your notes so i will see you at a later date the next day i saw my psychologist after spending the previous day in complete disaray she was unhappy about how things had worked out as this should have sped things up and this has put me on a complete downward spiral so i now have another review on monday but i really do not understand why i am being made to jump through hoops i have been with this therapist for over 5 years now she suggested that maybe i should change my meds as well and yet i feel that this guy is not convinced i need these meds so i am now in a suicidal black hole waiting to decide my fate this may sound dramatic but with the darkness i have had over me recently this is how i feel the tears flow freely and the dark thoughts run rampant i have begged for help what more can i do.