i'm done.

[staralfur]

I know its been a while since I was here...things were going ok for me.

Then, yesterday, out of the blue my partner left me. She wanted to walk out with no money or nowhere to go, so I drove the 10 hour found trip to drop her at her mums.

Now, she doesn't want me.

She was my saviour last year and she stopped me at a very bad time from ending it all. But now I have nothing, I'm in a house full of memories, I have nothing that I want in life anymore. She was it, my everything. I love her with every beat of my heart, but she doesn't want it anymore, so now its time to go.

Thank you to everyone who supported me in the past when I had problems, this is a fantastic website to help people who are still at a point of saving.

I love you forever my perfect angel, you truly are the most beautiful creature ever xxxx

[Zaf]

Stralfur, please phone the samaritans or doctor

Z xxx

[staralfur]

Thanks zaf, but I don't need help this time. I just need to be free from this life of constant let downs

[Zaf]

Did she give you no indication why or or no hope.

Z xxx

[KateG]

Thinking of you, whatever you decide x

[Sweetpea]

Thinking of you too x x x x

[staralfur]

I'm so scared...so so scared

[Sweetpea]

We are here for you Staralfur if you want to talk  !+_

S x x x x

[staralfur]

I've decided I'm going down to Kent again. I'm going to try and see if I can prove to her that I love her completely. If that fails then I know I have nothing left.

I don't want to, I loved being with her. She really was my world. We would go for walks and just hold hands for hours, her smile was the smile of the entire universe, and her eyes....I can look forever into her eyes.

I wish she could see how I feel about her...I tried telling her everyday. I guess I didn't say it enough.


I'm so f***ing horrible!

[Sweetpea]

Hope it works out for you.

S x x x x

[staralfur]

This is a serious question. I honestly don't know the answer.

I have over 500 co codamol 39/500, a whole load of carbamazepine, gabapentin, citalopram and omerprazole.....is it enough for me to die overnight?


I'm scared of failing again

[Sweetpea]

I really don't know, please think about this.  If you feel this bad please seek help.  Try and think of what the people you leave behind will feel.

S x x

[Got]

Hi,

I've been were you are now more than one occasion. One thing after another, I'd pretty much given up.

I can promise you that the pain and hurt you feel now will not last. You will be happy again, and you will be glad that you did not take your life. Taking your life is not the right decision, and with time you will see that I am correct. Your thoughts about your life at the moment are formed by perceptions, these perceptions are alterable and in time you will have a different outlook about your life. Please believe me, as a sufferer of depression and as someone who has been where you are right now, things will get better.

Please do seek help about this. Suicide is the worst possible option.

Take care of yourself,

Steve

[Zaf]

Thinking of you staralfur  !+_ xxx