Cannot make arrangements....

[Happywanabee]

Not at all sure this is in the right part fo the forum (bit confused as to different sections and where posts should go).
I am a dog owner (3 yorkies) and if it wasn't for them, I would rarely go out. I was talking to a friend yesterday and she said that she was meeting another dog walker today at a certain time and did I want to go along? (I also know and like the other person).
Panicking now as to whether I can go or not? This is ridiculous right?!
She offered to call for me but made excuse. I feel very down today and do not feel that I have anything to "add" to the walk!! 

[Sweetpea]

Feel for you, I think its common for us to have low self esteem, I know I certainly do.  Do your friends know you suffer with depression?

S x x x x

[Buttercup]

Yep I'm always doing that, I'll arrange to do something and back out at the last moment 

[willows]

I am always doing this as well. I make excuses because I think I will spoil things for everyone so they will have a better time if I don't go

[Zaf]

me too, it really must frustrate my friends

[Happywanabee]

Seems I am far from being alone with this?!!
My one friend knows I suffer from depression but they are both lovely people anyway so I should have gone, right?!
Thanks for replies, it makes me feel better about things

[Sweetpea]

No it doesn't make things easier  &*( just wondered if they understood.

S x x x x

[Catbrian]

This is exactly why I remain reclusive....I just hate letting people down and I cannot bare anyone to have even the slightest expectation of me.   I too meet loads of people when out with the dog.   Of course I'm a friendly Scot but, unfortunately, many people have mistaken my chattiness for friendliness and have asked me to meet at another time.  I always get out of it because I know when it comes to it, I will only let them down.  I suppose it's all down to low self esteem and, in my case, paranoia.

[Happywanabee]

Catb ~ Do you know that I really thought it was only a small minority that felt like this...mainly me?!!
Yes, I would appear friendly too but also, just like you, I would know I would let people down if they wanted to meet up!! 
Meeting them by chance is ok although many days I do hope not to meet anyone at all?

[Zaf]

I think this is one of the beauties of the forum - we find out that many things we do or feel that we think are something peculiar to us are common amongst people that are depressed

Z x