Hey all,
I'm looking for some advice really. I suffer with bouts of depression on and off through my life. I do not take medication as i feel that it puts me on a controlled environment. I'm presently living in another country and not in the U.K and away from family and friends. I know i am not home sick. Have been in my new home for about 6 months and find it quiet difficult to adjust to things. One being a new relationship and getting my partner to understand that i have my good days and bad days. Last few weeks i have been having major trouble with my sleeping pattern, eatting regular meals as i can only eat very little and keep having problems with my stomach and digestion tract. I also wake up and feel like i want to cry or scream your head off. Waking early mornings or sleeping in the afternoon or evening due to feeling tired. I'm also trying to study a new language which is hard for me as i know English as my native language. I feel quiet confined in my life at present as i have no job and only my college classes and some people within this class whom i can chat with. Not that i would class as friends.
Presently i feel that i'm slowly sinking back into myself and losing all interests and lack energy or focus on things in a normal capacity. My partner is concerned with my health and sleep pattern. I wouldn't blame him if he couldn't continue a relationship with me. I feel my relationship is suffering as my partner works long hours for the financial support and that he resents me for it at times. As he is the one that is supporting me in most ways. I do not wish to go to the doctors as the cost is high and they rarely prescribe medication for sleeping or anxiety and it would also be at a cost.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Maus
