Hi everyone; it's me again

[Jess]

Hi everyone, how is everybody doing? I haven't posted in a while and I hope you are all doing well :) I just wanted to talk to someone about something that happened to me and I can't stop thinking about it.

Two months ago I visited Vienna with my college and best friend; on the second night we all went to an amusement park where both me and my best friend were in a rollercoaster accident and since then I haven't been able to stop thinking about it.

The ride started off normally until I realised that my safety belt was not fastened and so I was left with no protection during the four minuete ride. My best friend Sarah had to pin me to my seat while the ride carried on, twisting, turning and going upside down. During the ride we were both screaming for help and for the ride to be stopped in both English and German but to no avail. Luckily neither of us were hurt but we were severely shaken.

Most nights I lay awake thinking of the events that occurred, I still experience the sensation of panic and fear. I haven't been able to talk about what happened properly to anybody but Sarah as the matter was never taken seriously.

I am still struggling with my diabetes but I have a new dr now who seems to understand my problems.

If anyone can provide me with some words of advice it would be much obligied.

Much love, Jess xx

[Catbrian]

Hiyas Jess.  That's a very traumatic experience.  Hardly surprising you can't stop thinking about it.  Have a look at information on Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, you may find that quite useful.
It doesn't sound like the fairground workers were very sympathetic - surely they should have procedures for ensuring everyone is strapped in properly.
I hope you start to feel better about it.

[Zaf]

What a horrible experience

I wonder if you might be able to get some counselling to help you through how you are feeling now

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

This was an awful thing to happen to you, no wonder you cannot get it out of your mind.

I agree with Zaf maybe counselling would help you deal with this.

S x x x x

[Buttercup]

Hi, that's a really awful experience. I agree with what has been said before. Xxx

[tharidler]

hi jess
i was so sorry to read that you went through such a terrible ordeal i think looking up something like ptsd is a good idea also i think it really would be good if you could try to talk to someone about your ordeal and get them to take it seriously as this may be hard to get through without help of some sort even talking it through may help as i'm sure you know plenty of people on here will listen i hope the memories start to fade soon

[Holykimura]

sorry to hear about your ordeal, but at least you were not seriously injured, maybe you could talk to the samaritans, I find them helpful to talk too, and very friendly

[whiteadder]

What a frightening experience - poor you

I would make sure you share with your doctor what happened and how you feel. I don't know how ptsd or general trauma induced issues are treated but I will tell you this: I was attacked years ago, and I never really admitted how much it had affected me. I reckon if I'd been honest I might have got the right help to come to terms with it more quickly.

Another thing is that it's apparently the case that our fight or flight mechanism can lead to depression and anxiety. Looking back, often my depressive episodes have been triggered by traumatic events.

Anyway thank goodness you didn't get hurt :)

[Catbrian]

Like whiteadder, I also was attacked 20yrs ago. My assailant served 6yrs in prison. At the time, being  so determined to get on top of it, I did not even consider what effects the experience might have on my mental health.  It wasn't until 10 depressing yrs later when something completely unrelated did trigger PTSD.  Jess, this is a traumatic event and it's important you talk and recognise the painful emotions