hi everyone
i thought i would write a little about my current situation i have posted bits before but this me at the moment i'm currently taking 300mg of venaxx (this has many names) and 50mg of dosulipin i said a few weeks ago i had been offered to stay in a secure unit but i must say at the moment i turned it down as i really am very fearfull of going in (unreasonably scared they would not let me out ever again) but my psychologist is ok with my irrational fears.just to recap i have done cbt anxiety mindfulness and other courses so i agreed to try the roleplay(just for the smutty out there it was all above board and no one wore a nurses outfit)so it started with me talking over the issues that we know of that plague me and then the idea was for me to try and be a younger version of myself and my therapist as almost a responsible adult to look after me i'm sure this would change with the nature of the problems we have it has given me a couple of things to look at and i know it sounds strange but after the first session i was drained and had nausea and after this weeks session i really felt very strange and disconnected which concerned my therapist enough to call me at home to make sure i was alright she felt my brain was doing this as almost as a safety mechanism as i have been in a very black place for a while now and not coping as well as i would like i hope this makes a little sense as i find it hard at the moment to explain things and i ramble a bit but my point is even when it sounds stupid and pointless you never know what may help even a little any way thats enough for now
