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whiteadder

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No where else to turn
« on: May 22, 2012, 06:19:20 PM »
I've had anxiety and depression all my life, as well as constant pain from arthrytis for the past 10 years. I've had medications on and off. I often pretended everything was ok just for the sake of my career, but a few weeks ago it all became too much and I had a breakdown. Some of the symptoms I've had are panic and fear, hopelessness, aural hallucinations, sleepless nights, spasms,being unable to move, thinking I'm not real, tiredness, detachment, non specific guilt, thoughts of death, and forgetting whatever the hell the rest of the symptoms have been. Since being off work I've realised I don't really have any friends. I worry constantly about my daughter's disability and her future. We lost our house years ago and live in rented accommodation, which I fear we may struggle to afford in the future. I feel detached from my body and alienated from a society I feel I have no stake in. I used to take solace and pride in my alternative views but now I just feel lonely in a world that makes no sense to me. Hope I can meet some people on here who understand where I'm coming from and perhaps even help them a bit too.
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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #1 on: May 22, 2012, 06:30:42 PM »
Hi and welcome

I can certainly relate to most of those depressive symptoms and I know many others here will too.  I have alternate views too and often feel very different from 'normal' people and even with excellent counselling struggle with those feelings sometimes.

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« Reply #2 on: May 22, 2012, 06:50:30 PM »
Hello and welcome to the forum,

I can relate to alot of what you have said.  Hope the forum helps you.  It has been a godsend to me, just being able to talk to people that understand.

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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #3 on: May 22, 2012, 06:59:43 PM »
You guys just made my day - thanks x
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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #4 on: May 22, 2012, 07:08:59 PM »
Hope it helps, we are a really friendly bunch  :).

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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #5 on: May 22, 2012, 08:01:13 PM »
Hi Whiteadder,

I can relate to a lot of what you say, especially alternative views, for me them being a bit of science and music.  Most people around me aren't interested in that.  I also have no friends, well I do have three but I only see them once or twice a year and they live in the same town as me!  Equally my fault I know but when I'm depressed I don't really want people around.

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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #6 on: May 22, 2012, 08:03:37 PM »
Shaz and Zaf aren’t the only ones with alternative views. I go back from the 1960’s with mine. Sorry to hear you've been hallucinating, I go in for that too. It's a real pain in the arse

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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #7 on: May 22, 2012, 08:04:16 PM »
Quote from: Zaf on May 22, 2012, 06:30:42 PM
Hi and welcome

I can certainly relate to most of those depressive symptoms and I know many others here will too.  I have alternate views too and often feel very different from 'normal' people and even with excellent counselling struggle with those feelings sometimes.

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Sorry, I don't mean to hijack this thread but Zaf, I feel like that.  In some ways I'm glad I'm interested in the things I am, but would I change that for a healthy mind?  Bit like lobotomising Beethoven or Hemmingway.
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« Reply #8 on: May 22, 2012, 08:06:07 PM »
No problem beetzart, everyone's views are welcomed :)
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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #9 on: May 22, 2012, 08:12:15 PM »
Some of your symptoms sound a bit like psychotic depression, another personal friend of mine. Are you getting proper treatment – anti-psychotics and anti-depressants ?
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« Reply #10 on: May 22, 2012, 08:30:14 PM »
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I can relate to how you're feeling including arthrits pain which certainly doesn't help depression.
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« Reply #11 on: May 22, 2012, 08:36:58 PM »
Thanks Beetzart, Steve and Pip - great to know there are people with so much in common on here.

I'm not on meds at the moment - came off sertraline a good while ago and now awaiting referral and further support...I don't want to jump on board with a new set of meds until I'm sure I've been properly understood and maybe further diagnosed by the medical bods.
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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #12 on: May 22, 2012, 08:40:30 PM »
....and I'm looking forward to hearing more about everyone's alternative views as I get to know you more. Thanks all for such a warm welcome.
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« Reply #13 on: May 22, 2012, 08:48:52 PM »
Saw a couple of your book choices were  Is there LIfe after death?  and The Power of Now - I too read similar titles and Tolle's books
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Re: No where else to turn
« Reply #14 on: May 22, 2012, 08:59:38 PM »
Zaf - I love pondering the meaning of it all, speculative science, mysticism etc. Helps me not to worry so much about politics, economics and all that jazz. 
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